Yuna -

After midnight i shall kidnap you from the world
and i'll keep you in my room
hush now my love and hold my hand
after midnight i shall take you to a place
where no one else should know of
hush now my love and hold my hand

you are exactly where you supposed to be
and if they come for you
they would have to find me

stay
keep me awake
keep me amazed
only for today
keep me dazed
my love is yours only

after midnight
i shall stay awake
and if you chose to close your eyes now
hush now my love
i'll watch you sleep

you are exactly where you supposed to be
and if they come for you
they would have to find me

stay
keep me awake
keep me amazed
only for today
keep me dazed
my love is yours only

stay
keep me awake
keep me amazed
only for today
keep me dazed
my love is yours only

:/

At this very moment i am feeling soooo insecure and i don't know why.

I feel as if i am not special to him. I have done a lot of things to prove how much i care for him and i've done what i can to put in as much effort possible to keep us going but i feel like i'm doing everything. What is he doing to prove how he feels and what is he doing to make an effort?

I do see a little but that's it. JUST a little. He can't expect me to do everything. I envy most girls who has the type of guy who is not afraid nor shy to admit that he loves the girl and would have guts to show to the world that, that girl is his and that girl is special. not just any other typical girls. She is someone special.

Not that i care about the showing the world part but to be one of those girls who feels special to a guy (especially the guy you love) would be nice. I am thankful i even have a guy who loves me but how do i really know if he really does? I can compare him with a number of other guys who actually express how he feels and who is better but in the end i still chose that particular guy. 

I am the type of girl who doesn't care what people say or thinks about what she does. That's their problem. As long as i am happy, then that's good enough but when you have a guy its different. As long as both of us is happy then im good but right now, i am not happy. I don't feel special. I feel like what we are will only stay in school. That's not cool. I see other couples out there and im jealous. totally jealous. but i just bear with it and live with it.

xoxo,

SYAKIRAH :'/

Holiday Schmoliday

Hey yall!

I know i haven't updated my blog. I was busy and lazy. haha

Anyways, This holiday i went to

Kerteh, Terengganu. It may not be the most awesome place ever but its quite interesting :D

I slept at Awana Kijal and i even slept in the suite but only for one night only. haha. then i switched to a premier room overlooking the beach (:

The suite has its own jacuzzi tub outside at the courtyard and at the courtyard, there is a gate heading to the beach. Cool right? well there's more but you'd have to see for yours

elf.

The first day i was there i went to Mesra Mall whi

ch is the ONLY mall there and there are not many stores (sakit hati je) haha,

after that i went to the beach.

i helped my nephews build sand castles and i played frisbee, played in the water and i even got myself buried in the sand! :D

Cool right? i know! but omgosh you have no idea how heavy the sand was. haha. and itchy! hahaha :D

Then i went swimming and played water gun fight with my nephew izran. haha i know it sounds childish but hey! its fun and i have to because i had to take care of them. hee What to do? i am their one and only Aunty Baby (:

Then i went back to my room and ate dinner and the next day i left for Kuala Gandah, Pahang. We went to see elephants and i even went to deerland! :D

The elephants were huge and scary. haha.
oh and not to mention smelly. peeyouhh! hahhaa
anywayss. i did alotta things and im kinda lazy to share anymore. hehe.
till next post! :D

SYAKIRAH ;P

Lovely Lusciousness :D

Hey people! Im just here to say i am very happy i got a guy in my life. heee :D

Though we're not a couple. I repeat, we are not a couple. We just like each other.

For my case, i dont just like him. I love him. I really care for him. I dont want anything to ruin what we have (:

InsyaAllah, we will work out. I hope we will. 

I wont say who I'm in love with. That you'll have to put the pieces together yourself. I will only just fill you in the details on how i feel about him and all. (:

Oh and i walked around school with him and we talked and all. He gave me his picture when he was standard 5, haha, verrrrrrry cuteee! haha

And i gave him my nametag. he said he wants to sleep with it. hehe. 

Oh i love him so. He just makes me so happy but at times he could make me sad too but hey, that's life right? It cant just be all fine and dandy all the time. We will always have our ups and downs. Just gotta face it, 

Im just thankful that this year feels like a better year than last year,

I am more rajin, hardworking and most important, happy.

I actually stay back at school to do my homework and study. Sounds weird and so not me, i know! but that's what i do nowadays. Study and hoping that he'd come and hang with me. Although sometimes he doesn't but thats alright. I dont mind anyways. 

Okay, i am getting pretty sleepy so im gonna hit the hay okay? goodnight, sleep tight. 

xoxo,

SYAKIRAH <3

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*thanks for reading and hopefully support this website and be a loyal buyer (:

xoxo,
SYAKIRAH <3

Lala latest (:

Hello peoplee, sorry i've not been updating much.(Sofea) Quite busy you know. School shinanigans.
haha
Oh yeah! i've started school! hahaha.
I am currently in 3 Mawar. At first i thought its a loser class because as far as i've known, it was the second last class. but then i found out the school shuffled some names. Dnt know why but whatever.
I like my class now. The people are verrry nice. I LOIKE :D
Im sitting beside my bestiebestfriend Audrey. ngee. So yeah. haha
Peeps, don't look down on the Mawar class. We might just surprise the socks outta ya! hee
Anywayss, My life, (so live your life, heyyy eyy eyyy) HAHA.
There is nothing much to say about my life. It's just normal and practically the same so yeah. haha.
I dont know. I just loove life right now. haha but been moody nowadays. Some family problems. :/
So to those who knows me, if you see me frowning, dont talk to me. (:
Im giving you guys a clear warning. So i wont accidently say something i shouldnt. hee
So i guess thats about it so far. For now only.
If im free and i have new news, i'll be sure to update aiite? :D
TTFN, see youu, Lovess

xoxo,
SYAKIRAH <3

JB's Prom (:

Hey there!
okay i am gonna tell you about the whole entire day of the prom. haha
it all started when me and deena didn't wake up that morning. haha. we were supposed to wake up at 8 but we woke up at 10 instead. gahaa.
okay then we mandi mandi and all. and we got ready to go to ND's house because deena wanted to borrow a dress.
After we got ready and all, uncle uda (deena's dad) took us to ND's house.
Then we went in and we saw her mcm almost sleeping at the bench outside. she just got back from work. she works from 8 pm until 8 am. crazy kan?
okay then we went in her room and deena chose a dress. first she wanted this gold dress but it was showy showy. if she twirled she could see her knickers. haha
so she picked this oldschool type of dress. and she looked great! :D
Okay then me, deena and ND wanted to have lunch at roost. deena has been wanting to show me that place so we went there and OMGOD its super nice!
I seriously love the photography they took. I couldnt take my eyes off of them.
Then we ate. after that we went to the New York Hotel which was the event's hotel.
I had a soundcheck because i performed :D
I was the special guest from KL *winkwink* haha
we waited quite long and it was quite awkward because i dont know anyone there. just deena and her friends je.
So i practiced on my own for a while sambil tunggu shooq and phat and all.
Then when they came shooq's band sounchecked first. so i listened and the band was awesomely good. I was really impressed :D
Okay then i soundchecked. once je. because i had to do my hair. haha
Then after the soundcheck we went to Holiday Plaza to do our hair.
Then we walked home to deena's house at century garden.
While walking we were sort of kind of disturbed by dogs. haha
they weren't chasing us but they disturbed us. haha
quite scary. haha but finally we were home. all three of us got ready and all and we went to the hotel. i was freaking nervous like hell okay! you have no idea. haha
then we met rahmat, nam, and aeyul.
After that we went up and bought our tickets and had a stamp on our hand.
Then i saw there were alot of people and i got really really nervous until i cant eat.
I ate only the first few bites. after that i cant anymore. haha
then there were performers and all and i kept going back and forth to the toilet to practice. haha
and then there was a dance competition. haha
AND THERE WERE TWO DRAGSS! haha
and i dont know where in the world did they come from. haha
and they entered the dance competition and girls had to battle guys.
One of them was shy and ask the guy to go first and then when the guy started already she was all excited and danced until the guy literally ran away from her. hahaha.
It was seriously funny. haha. i laughed like i never before. gaahah
Then the other drag was not shy at all. haha
She wore a dress that slit until her thighs.
And when it was her turn, she showed her legs and we were all like "WHOAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!" haha
and she danced with her partner and the guy layan the drag okay! and you should see what else he did. haha. It was hilarious i tell you!
haha
then we went back to the performence. shooq's band was next and they were totally AWESOME! :D
i give them a 10 upon 10. :D
after that there were 3 more performence. 2 girls and then me. I was the last to perform.
Then the first girl sang already then it was supposed to be another girl before me but then my name was called out and i was shocked. i wasn't ready. haha
i was like omgod omgod omgod. haha
then i went up there and i sang. and guess what?
I GOT A ROSE! :D
haha. from shooq's bestfriend. his name is ariff but they all call him poy.
Then i was relieved. and i know my voice wasn't good that night. it was shakey and just not nice. i was nervous so it wasn't my best performence. but its okay. (:
then it was dancing time.
It was the slowdancing type and im not good at that. the only time i've ever slow danced was with my ex boyfriend and tu pun without music and we didn't know what we were doing. haha
Then poyy asked me to dance with him. :O
shocking right? haha
then i did. i had fun. and there were pictures but i dnt know where are the pictures. haha
Then it was the dancing part yg put your hands in the ayer type of dance. haha
that was the best part. haha
i enjoyed it so much! :D
So the story ends here.
Until next time my fellow mates and matettes. (:

xoxo,
SYAKIRAH <3

Update

Hey peeps,
Today's story mory is kinda lame but i just need to let it out. So it's your choice if you wanna read it or not.
I fucking hate my life. Everything was fine until something happened and i'm not gonna tell what that something is. I'm hurt and also depressed.
I used to like this person but now i'm starting to worry why. Is it worth it?
I don't know. At this point i have my doubts and i'm gonna do something before anything else happens.
So here's my choice. I'm closing my options and i'm just flying solo and i am gonna go with the flow.
There is no destination. Just a continuous road to self discovery.
I am tired oj just stopping and pulling over and push away my other options and who knows they may be better? So i think i am done and i just wanna live my life how its meant to.
I am gonna be alone for now, so what? i can handle it i guess.
I know i am going to be extremely lonely but i'll have to live with it.
I do wanna find my other half. Oh that would be a dream come true but i know it's never gonna happen. I guess i am a type of girl who hopes too much and i ended up hurting myself when things don't go the way i hoped. But people keep on giving me false hope. And i am trying not to listen to them but its hard to deal with so many things at the same time you know.
Well all i am saying is that things never really go the way i hoped it'll be but i've learn to live with it and i am kinda used to it so i guess its no problem but the pain and the sadness will always be there and adding on as the days pass. That cant be changed. For me.
Well i a getting pretty tired.
So my blog ends here. Until next time (:

xoxo,
SYAKIRAH <3

Thursday (:

Hello good people of the world. haha
Guess what! I had a haircut yesterday and now i have BANKS! :D heeee
Supposedly i was focusing on ala ala having hayley williams look but improvise sikit because i have curley hair but then i ended up looking like Demi Lovato. haha
Which is fine but thats not what im going for mann! haha
I went to the salon like 5 like that and i did treatment and all that jazz and my hair was only finished like at 7.30. lambat kan? but its all worth it (: ngeee
Then after that i went home and tukar baju because ray said at Laundry ada Campur Chart Goes Live punya thingy so okay, i went to Laundry and hang out hang out. I wore a green tube top and a lace vest on it and black shorts with slipper. I'll show you the picture
<< There you go. I know, i look fat but wth i deserve to wear clothes like these too. ^.^
Then we sampai laundry it was Campur Chart. It was moonshine ke moonlight i'm not sure but i know ada moon lah. hahaha.
Then we sat down and watch the live performances and gosh gempak gila!
Then i ordered hot chocolate because it was friggin cold that night. And the waiter came with a bucket of beer for the rest but not me, gila ke?
But the waiter thinks im older than my age and almost gave me a bottle of beer. haha.
Cuakk dowh! haha
Then we continued watching the performances and then sambil tu we played gymramy. hehe.
we played until 1 almost 2 like that okayy, but i liked it. it was fun.
Then we went to rasta for awhile because some of us were still hungry and nak tapau makanan. While waiting for the food, we played batu seremban. haha. Ada je nak buat to pass the time. haha.
And we laughed like mad okay! hard to explain why. you'd have to watch it for you to know why. haha. but i swear it was damn funny! haha.
Okay this blog ends here for now. Until next time my friends (:

xoxo,
SYAKIRAH <3

Adventure to KL starring Syakirah and Deena! :D

Heyy there guyss,
on Friday, the 5th of December, 2008, Me and Deena went on a journey to the heart of Kuala Lumpur. heee
I'll tell you EVERY single thing that happened. hehe
Here it goes (:

The night before, me and deena went online until 2 am like that. Then we decided to sleep because we have to wake up extremely early tomorrow which is at 6 am. Now i know you're wondering why we had to wake up that early right? Well we didn't have any other transportation to take us to KL that doesn't involve a lot of money so we tumpang Deena's sister, Kak Tina to work since her office which is Singapore Airlines, is in KL.
So on Friday, we didn't wake up at 6 like we planned but we woke up at 7 instead and we only have like 15 minutes to get ready and i was like Oh my freaking god! Kak Tina is so gonna kill us if we're late but then we managed to get ready in time. heheee :D
Then we had to send Kak Tina's husband to his alternative office because his original office had a landslide. I saw it and it was superbly scary, a lot of cars hancur including the new mercedes that had only came out of the shop for a week! Kesian kan? i know.
It was jamming over there because everyone was sooo kepoh to look at the landslide and don't give a damn that people are late but that's normal right.
Okay then we reached Kak Tina's office around 8 till 8.30 like that and we waited in the pantry. We saw how Kak Tina had to layan the customers and i tell you, they are freakin annoying! I don't know how she can control her patience and anger. haha. Anyways, while waiting until it was time for us to start walking, we helped decorate the christmas tree! :D I even took a snowflake ornament. hehe shh! :P
Then it was already like 10 plus and Kak Tina said we could leave already and her friend showed us the way to the monorail. We understood was she said but when we started walking we forgot. hahaha and we ended up lost. we went to the wrong side. haha. Oh and just to say, during this whole adventure, we got lost A LOT of times. haha.
Kay back to the part we got lost going to the monorail station. We then found a gula gula stall and we asked for directions and he asked us to go straight so we did.

Then we saw the sign 'KL monorail' and we were so excited! and beside there was a Putra LRT station and we thought to go to the monorail, we had to go down there and we did. haha, and the escalator is freaking steep and tall! Me and Deena was like, "okay okay, gayat. Im scared". haha
Then we went back up and went to the monorail station!


Here's a picture to show we actually made it to the monorail!


Then we went to the counter to buy the ticket thingy to go to Bukit Bintang. It cost like 1.20 each. Then we had to wait for like 10 minutes. Oh and by the time we reached the monorail, it was already 10.36 am.
We didn't see that many people riding with us so we buat bodoh je. haha.
We laughed and sang and basically act dumb. haha.
We were absolutely crazy that day. We couldn't keep our mouth shut! haha. Then the monorail arrived and i was kinda scared to go on it because i had a bad experienced once when i was a little girl. Very little like 5 or 6 years old. I was on my mom's back and we were in the LRT and we wanted to go out. Everyone was pushing (you know malaysians) and my mom ended up falling and her foot was stuck to the railway. I fell head first to the floor from my mom and i was injured quite badly. And my mom injured her foot a little bit and she lost a slipper. So ever since then i was scared. Okay, back to the monorail.

I overcame my fear and i went on the monorail looking down and being extra carefull my foot doesn't get stuck and in matter of seconds i was in the monorail sitting down (:
Then me and Deena just sat there and waited until our destination was reached. We wanted to go to BB which was on the right and two stops away but then the monorail went to the left. We didn't notice until Deena saw the sign Medan Tuanku and we were thinking this is not our stop. Before our stop should be Raja Chulan. So we knew we were on the wrong platform. haha.We didn't sempat to go out while we were at Medan Tuanku so we went out a stop ahead which was Chow Kit. haha. Then we walked to the other platform and waited, AGAIN for another 15 minutes but good thing we kept ourselves entertained (:












Then we arrived! We arrived there at 11.20 am and we stopped at Lot 1o and then we walked to Pavilion. We didn't get lost to Pavi because i already know the way there. hehe. Then we took a picture of of achievement but everyone there was like 'what the hell are they doing? and why the hell are they doing it? eee, gila gedik!' but me and Deena was like, phhfft, whatever. We just wanna take a picture of us in front on pavi (:

Then we went to GSC to buy our movie tickets for 12.30. Then off for breakfast! We ate at La Bodega (:
We shared a plate of english breakfast and a plate of pancakes (:
Then we hanged there until our movie started and we left like 10 minutes before the movie started. Cuz i had an emergency that involves a toilet. haha. Then we took a lot of pictures and just plain berangan in there, haha. you know girls. heee :P
Then we went for our movie and it was awesome! we watched Wild Child :D i now have the hots for Alex Pettyfer. ngeee :P
Okay, continue with our story, after the movie we figured, we wanna go to Times Square and go to the theme park. So we walked, we didn't know the direction to Times Square so we asked Pavi's information counter and we became Singaporeans. haha. The man asked us "Is this your first time in KL?" and I said "Yeahh." Then he asked "Where are you from?" then Deena answered "Singapore." haha, and we even had names for each other. Deena's was Virgo and I was Sarah. haha. Oh and did i tell you that we even got a map? ahah. we really did look like actual tourists. haha. But having the map didn't really help that much. we still got lost. haha.
After that we were just walking to see where is Times Square and we saw Sungei Wang and we were actually planning to there to buy my friend's birthday present but we say never mind lah we dont know the way. haha but since we found it, we went in. haha. Then i bought my friends present and we were off to Times Square but then we got lost finding the way out. haha!

Then we found the entrance and we found our way to Times Square then we straight on went to the theme park but we got lost finding it. haha. See, we were lost a lot of times right? haha.
Then when we found it, we saw that it was damn expensive so we decided to go karaoke instead and we did. we even ate lunch in there and i was so proud of Deena because she hardly ever sings! and she sang in front of me! heheee. :D
then while we were singing, Kak Tina called and asked us to go back to her office and then we rushed to the monorail and all and we were late jgk hehe. and that is the end of our KL adventures. Until next time (:

xoxo,
SYAKIRAH <3