Looks like you get stuck with the cheque

Heyy, I am at home right now. I went to Mcd to meet the guys for green house practice but then it rained -_- soo then we were stuck in Mcd and we ended up playing truth or dare instead. Hehe. Damnn funny. haha. I can't say. Its between the table only. haha. Then thats it. I'm here and now i'm gonna watch Sydney White :)
Skaadushh! 

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So whats the point in all of this?

Hello, I had public speaking today so I didn't study at all. Haha. I'm so tired right now but my sister wouldn't let me sleep. Grrrr! She wants me to help her clean our room. haha. I know, i'm lazy. wooh. Haha
Gosh i wish i didn't have school tomorrow. Can I just skip it and continue as if tomorrow is Saturday? Pleasse! I'm so excited for Saturday. ngehee :p It would be like probably the first time I'm going out with well, you know who. Need I say it. hehe. So yeah. He wants to watch legion. I wanna watch Fame! haha. But legion pun legion lah. Haha. Just hope that nothing goes wrong. *fingerscrossed* hehe :) 
Thats all. haha. Danke Schön :)

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Ustaz wanted to take a picture with us. HAHA. (click for better view)

Okay, today i was totally in a bad bad mood. I was super stressed out because i've got like, debate, kp stuff, public speaking, homework, green house, family problems and personal problems. I really needed someone who i can share and can just listen and say "everything will be okay" even though i know it isn't true. But its just to make me feel better at the time. I broke down and cried in class today. It was too much and one girl can't handle too much at a time. So i broke down but after a while, i felt better but i was still in a bad mood until i got home. Now i'm fine. Still stressed but not as much as before. Alhamdulillah :) 

Okay now, i've got to practice for the public speaking. Goshh I'm nervous :\

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This is what I like :)

Wooh, today was tiring! Studied a bit in school and then after school i had german class. I went with haider and then we learned german grammar :D Imagine, in the german language, every noun must have a gender. haha. Craaazy. Oh and we learnt how to spell just now. hehe :) I am very very busy this week. Homeworks, duties, public speaking, debate tomorrow, Carta Organisasi for KP, Dads birthday, Rumah hijau. I can go crazy like this. I need my loverboy. ): 


Anyways, I've been getting massive tummy aches nowadays and I can't figure out why. I eat. So it can't be gastric. I'm not having my period. OH! maybe i'm gonna get my period soon. I've been feeling mad and angry lately if i'm on my own. Maybe, maybe. haha. Okay. So far, thats all i have to say. Ich liebe dich :)

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I am finally finished with my public speaking text. Now, all i have to do is just add the speech part. Wooh. Suddenly I feel excited to present what I have. hehe :p Other than that, i'm not feeling that good today. I woke up in the middle of the night at 3 yesterday because I had a major major tummy ache and I couldn't sleep. I'm having the same thing right now even. Gosh. It hurts )': But i've got to be strong. I can't just layan the feeling. It'll attack more that way. 

Anyways, I'm gonna go do my homeworks now, I've got tons :/ Skaadushh.

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"Pak cik, and all the pak cik. This boy. Sabotage. Disposal. Eh eh proposal!"

Baby are you down down down down down. Haha, okay that was random. hehe. Okay, yesterday I had school -_- I didn't want to go but i have to because i had add maths and i don't understand shizz so i force myself to go. Nak belajar punya pasal kan (hee :P) Anyways, only 13 people came and Adira didn't come so Acap sat next to me. And during recess, me and acap went to the library just for fun. haha. We only studied add maths, a bit of english, and BM. We didn't learn maths or accounts. -_- 


Anyways, after school, while waiting for my family to come and pick me up, i hung out with Amin for a while. Then amin went to Aizat's house and i went home. Adding all the singgah's and all, I reached home at like 4 and my sister asked me to get ready by 7.30 because my sisters boyfriend's family invited us to have dinner together. Big day big day. My sister was nervous and so was her boyfriend. haha. 


Nuff and I didn't stay long because we had a movie at 10.30. So we left at 10 and reached there at 10.40. HAHA. We were latee. And it was raining heavily -_- sucks okay! serabot nation! Once we arrived at cineleisure, i saw yik and bgbill at the snack bar so we went there. As soon as we've got all the food, we went up to enter the cinema. But before going up the stairs, I saw amin. haha. He was there too! With his siblings. (: But i couldn't talk much cause i was super late. haha


We watched Adnan Sempit. HAHA. Damnn funny. I recommend this movie to you guys. You must must must watch it. I couldn't stop laughing. Funny funny funny. hehe. Then dah habis, we lepak at al-safa and we met farady, aredeq and job. I was already sleepy but i had to follow kan. After they're done with whatevers, we went back home. Lalala, i slept. haha. That's all. hehe Skaadushh

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S

T

★

R

All i can say, 

I'll love you till the end ♥

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White Horse

I don't know why but i feel good right now. hehe. Like i feel totally regenerated and fresh and just woosh! hehe :P. I've got school tomorrow but i'm lazy to go because cm entah, it's a Saturday for god's sake. Its a day for sleeping or hanging out. Not for studying. Homework, yes. Not studying. Haha,


My whole leg is aching right now due to lack of exercise and suddenly do sports. Hah! Cramps. That's the word. Haha. I've got the cramps. hehe. :P Anyways, kapoww. hehe. I don't know whats wrong with me. I feel weird and sort of good and there's like this tickly butterfly feeling inside my tummy. I somehow think it is a good thing. Some people would know why i'm so giddy right now. hehe ;D Oh and i don't know why but i am like totally addicted to the song White Horse Stephen Jerzak version. haha. And and airto. woohoo! Okay i don't know what else to say. Skaadushh :)

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IN YOUR FACE! :)

21st January, 2010 ♥

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Surprise!

Hey all! Yesterday i got a not-so-surprised surprise sweet sixteen party from my family. Awww (': At first i really had no clue but then when the hints and all were like all over the place, i caught it. Haha but i was still awwed by the fact that they gave me a surprise party i wanted. hehe. Felt like crying at that point but noo, eyeliner! HAHA. We ate at chillies and it was nice. 

Then the birthday cake came. And I didn't notice what cake it was until it was in front of my face. It was a Häagen Daz Belgian Chocolate ice cream cake that I showed my dad and sister. It was damn expensive so i didn't think they'd get it but they did! ('''':

This is my birthday cake people! woohoo! :D Then after that, it's present time. Guess what I got. I GOT A TELESCOPE! :O :O :O I ACTUALLY SCREAMED! I WAS SO EXCITED BECAUSE IT'S WHAT I WANTED. HEEEEEEE :D 

Okay that's all. hehe. bubye! skaadushh!

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I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

[Chorus:]
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

[Chorus]

Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.

Perfection

hello all! I don't know why, despite a few miserable situations, i'm beginning to enjoy 2010. Why? one, I'm lucky enough to be in a sub science class even though i didn't get an A for science. Which is utterly awesome. hehe. I'm getting used to my class already. I wasn't all okay with it at first because i didn't have any of my close friends in there which is sad it's okay i guess. Now i've made new friends. New as in never thought i'd be in the same class as these people. I feel as though i'm the stupidest person in class. -__-


I am probably like one the latest to understand chapter one of add maths. And thats only the first chapter. How will i cope with the rest man. haha. You wanna know something? Its surprising for me that so far, I can understand physics and chemistry fast. I'm not saying that in a over-confident snobbish way. It's just that, wow. Syaq? Understands science? Dayummn. Haha. Hard to believe but I enjoy learning physics and chemistry.



My class did an experiment for heating and cooling naphtalene yesterday in chemistry class. I was like so jakun. Ask Adira and Acap. I was like "Oh my god! aah cool gilaa!" haha. Anyways. Since school started, I haven't been given that much homework like my other friends have. Except for maths. Oh Pn. Hamizawati loves giving lotsa homeworks. It's a good thing it's easy, or not, die die die! haha. Recently I finally understood add maths. I've been copying Adira's book all this while but now, I understand! Accomplishment baby! :D


Oh and did i tell you my birthday is in 2 days? Yeah, it is. My lovely sweet sixteen. My friends are planning to go to OU after school and celebrate. I'm uber excited. Can't wait. I'll finally be 16. (':

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Maybe it's true, That I can't leave without you.

And maybe two, Is better than one.

But there's so much time, To figure out the rest of my life.

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Sacred Secret

I'm confused. I know i'm stupid for feeling this way but it's how i feel and i tried a lot of things to dispose of it. 

Now i'm out of idea's. I need help )':

On top of that, i'm not quite feeling okay right now due to family stuff. Emotionally unstable for the moment :\

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Can you ever tell what lies beneath words we say?

The answer is no. We can't. Though many of us try very hard to figure out this complicated, mind-boggling and arcane mystery. Those who are simply superb take it lightly as they could figure ones meaning in a snap. But what about those who don't comprehend what those type of people who'd like to say words as though as it is an abstract painting? Yes, in certain situations where it isn't crucial you could use them but when you're in a situation where saying stuff straight to the point is necessary, why not put aside the abstract for a moment and just say it as it should be. Not all can catch up and get the meaning straightaway. It would be much easier. I'm not saying that saying stuff indirectly is wrong and we shouldn't do it, no. Heck, i do it to. I love doing it but when it comes to the point where its best not to, then i'd say it straight on. 


p/s : This does not point out to anybody. This is in general because basically, i've got nothing to blog about. 

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I'm taking a break from saying I love you to a significant other. There's no point in saying something that is not entirely
true and sincere. I've got my reasons and my
secrets that does not include anybody except certain somebody(s).

I'll stay this way as long as possible but should there be someone who happens to pass by and my feelings towards him(if i have any) is true and if my feelings that has been holding me back all this time has pass, then who knows I might consider. Maybe.

I Feel Pathetic, 

I Am Pathetic.

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Blockage

I'm missing my pasts. Because my ego is as big as my head, I rarely admit it. Now I am. As much as I say that i'm over it and i'm okay and all. No, that's all a cover up. I'm not over it and i'm not okay. Not even a slight bit. Even though i'm not over it and not okay, it doesn't mean i'm not trying. Oh gosh i am. You've got no idea how much effort i've put in to make me get over it. I'm not looking for a replacement or a new person to help me forget, no. I want to make it through without having anyone(significant other) with me. I might just end up hurting him. 


I am currently liking this person but i know that i shouldn't. I shouldn't. I can't. I'm confused and I'm going crazy right now. I'll try to get through it. hmm. Goodbye,

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No pain, no game

I'm in pain. )':

Second day with braces and it hurts like hell. Now I know how the others feel. Gosh. 

Come on syaq! It's to make your teeth prettier. It's for a good cause. Shizzz.

It's been a week since school started. Most of my teachers are awesome. Ada yg gila. 

The subjects are just fine. So far, I can cope with all except add maths. I dah start confuse. HAHA. Thats all. hee :D

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Wooh, i just finished ALL my homeworks that I have. Gosh it was tiring. I wanted to be in sub science and this is what i'll have to cope with. Dayummn. 
Anyways, I got my braces fixed today. hehe. While they were putting in on, It didn't hurt. But now? Now the pain starts. I can't bite or eat. Trust me, I tried )':
I look at certain people with braces, they look good. But I think that i'm not suitable wearing braces. I feel ugly. Like ugly betty. Serious. But other people look just fine. I'm jealous. Oh well :/ 
I'm gonna eat some medicine, wash up and hit the hay now. See ya! Skaadushh 

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P.S I LOVE YOU,

probably one of the sweetest love story ever made. ♥

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Two is better than one.

Repeat tonight and every other time i spend with you over and over again please. 

I like it this way. Please don't change.

Keeping a secret, 

I shall never tell a soul,

If i did i would find,

Deep in my heart will be a hole.

I will always love you no matter what. Stupid decision but my heart won't let me let you go. Apparently, my heart still belongs to you.

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Me and my heart we got issues

Hey there! I just got back from school. hee. I got what I wanted! Sub Science. hee :D 
I was so happy until i actually cried. I know, tahpape gila but I felt so emotional because I didn't get an A for science yet i'm in sub science. I'm so thankful. Though, I've got no friends in that class ): but it's alright. I'll manage. Hopefully Razi masuk my class. hee :D


Anywho, The new subjects i'll be learning are, Accounts, Physics, Chemistry and Add Maths. :O
Scared but excited at the same time. hee. Alright, i'ma go now. hehe. Toodles! Skaadushh

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Oh, please please please, don't leave me alone..

...DON'T LEAVE ME BY MY OWN.

HAHA, don't mind the title and the sentence above. It's just what me and yik made up just now during work. haha. He did a lot of things that made me feel geram. Not geram, marah. But geram nak peluk. haha. Oh especially when he makes his faces. Goshh I can go crazy which I always do with him. Saaaayang Haritz. ♥

Anyways, today is my last day of work and tomorrow is school! :O I'm excited yet nervous. I'm uber anxious to know what stream am I put into. hee. This year, i'm gonna change for the better.

My 2010 resolutions: 

1. Study hard

2. Complete all homeworks and class works(insyaallah)

3. Keep away of unnecessary stuff

4. Cut the drama rama

5. Focus

6. Tone my body

7. Clear my face

8. Master the guitar

9. Master the keyboard

10. Get myself active in the Theater. (KLPAC)

11. Audition for competions(if any) for confidence and learning experience (:

*thats all i've got so far. haha (:

Okay, I've to go to sleep soon. So i'ma finish my preparation for school tomorrow. I'm beat. whooh! 

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