Mathematics

dearies, YA HOH! hahah x)
Today, it was fun! ahaha we learned, TRIGONOMETRY! hee, best! i loike because i understand and its easssyyy. so far lah. haha


Anyways, as usual, pn. teh will teach like a bullet train and use HER examples. merepek-ness. haha
Just now she used the funniest example yet! haha she said something about fever and H1N1 and after that she said "YA HOHH!" hahaha. you have to listen to it to think its funny. hahahha! im sorry, im a little weird and merepek today. hee :P 


Then lalala we had agamaa. hee. I GOT A 94! :O first time in my life i got a 94 for agama. and its agama okay!
haha. Im sorry but i dont wanna be perasan and belagak but im just so proud of myself. its an accomplishment. hee. Okay tu je. ahaha tomorrow i've got tuition and kena bangun awal. hee. Tataa

Tralaloves,

Syakirah Exellwood ♥

HOLROIGHT

hooliess, hello there and whats up. My up is about the July Test is finally overr! wheeehee :D It's the best! heee

haha. After getting our Sejarah paper, Me, Fatim, Robyn, Sofea, Joel and Daniel decided to make a study group! We'd study and we'll randomly pick something out of the text book and quiz each other. I'm excited :D

My rambut is so messed up now and tak tentu arah so i'm gonna go and fix it. haha. A girl just gotta be a girl ;P Thats all, hehe tata.

Tralaloves,

Syakirah Exellwood ♥

Once upon a dream

Ohmagosh, i forgot to say that i had a dream about N¹ and N² HAHA, random nation i tell you. haha

Okay about N¹ punya dream. I dreamt he came to my house and he was sitting on a sink which is surprisingly deep. HAHA. then T came suddenly out of no where and tapped him and said "handsome handsome handsome" HAHAHA! and then she left and then she came back with 10 bucks. She handed it to me and i asked wht it was for. Then she said "It's for Charles and Keigl." then i said "oh okay. *takes the money*" HAHAH. I know there is a Charles and Keith but no Charles and Keigl. haha. And no way Charles and Keith cost 10 bucks. HAHA. GILA KE HAPA? hahaha

About N², i dreamt that I hunged out with her family. WEIRD. I talked to her and ada this one guy, i can't remember who and i also talked to her father! :O

Then she seems soo irritated and rimas and she went crazy. haha. Then this conversation happened

SYAQHERDAD

Tengok tu, N² tengah psycho nak cari topi sebab dia tak suka rambut dia.

Oh dia buat apa?

She curled her hair with a straw and dia tak suka.

HUH? WHAT?

she curled her hair with a straw.

Oh, tapi nampak lawa apa.

Tu lah, Ayah pun suka.

END.

HAHAHAHA! JANJI THIS HAPPENED. haha. and suddenly her dad refers him as ayah with me okay! i was like OMGOSH! :O. When i told Fatim just now, she laughed like mad! haha. and now she's trying to curl her hair with a straw. HAHA. okay tu je. hee

p/s; to know who are the characters, lemme know hokayy? hee :P you'd be surprised. ahha

Tralaloves,

Syakirah Exellwood ♥

Examination

Hohoho, merry christmas. hahaha xD i'm bored. Im currently having my July test. Yesterday was Geografi, B.M, Agama and Science. Homagoshh, geografi like fcker! Trust me, im gonna faill. It wasn't that hard but it's because I didn't study i couldn't do well. It was all that peta shits where we have to name the pelabuhan kontena and pulaus haha. B.M pun cm eerrrghh. For me, I suck in B.M. I only know how to speak in bahasa pasar. hohoo! :P

Today we had Mathematics, English and Sejarah. Maths was all algebraic expressions and linear equations. it was alright laa. Not bad but was still difficult. :/ Sejarah? HAH HAH well, it was okay because me, fatimah and aiman studied in the library and most of the questions that came out was related to what we studied so me and fatim was like, heee bangga. hahaha.

we also studied in class. We quized each other and this is how sofea answers the questions. haha! SHE WAS DANCING! haha

Then drama happened. Me, Robyn, Sofea and Audrey fought. At first it was just Audrey and Robyn then Audrey called Sofea in. Then fight fight fight, scream scream scream then I heard my name. I knew I was part of it as well. I went to the scene and I started screaming at Audrey's face. I was soo pissed because my own bestfriend didn't understand my feelings and didn't realize how much i've sacrificed for her. HELLO?! YOU'VE BEEN MY BEST FRIEND FOR 4 YEARS. USE YOUR BRAIN LAH, DO YOU THINK I CAN REPLACE YOU JUST LIKE THAT? ARE YOU MAD OR SOMETHING?

It shows how selfish you really are. Just because I keep hanging with Fatimah, doesn't mean I love you less. I don't feel needed by you. Have you ever think about that? I don't think so.

Okay tomorrow I have K.H. lalalala, haha. i hope it'll be fine. heee. :P

I've got to go now. tataa,

Tralaloves,

Syakirah Exellwood ♥

Nigeria

i just wanna say that some told me that he loves me but it's too early for anything to happen. I can say that I kinda like him but i can't say love him. I'm sorry but maybe if i get to know him better i will. Maaaybe.

p/s: This doens't mean i don't like you. Gimme time (;

tralaloves,

Syakirah Exellwood ♥

the saturdays

yo my hoolies. haha guess what I found out this morning! :D

omgomgomg, Mr. L has been talking about me at school. hehehehe :P (bangga) HAHAHA

then i texted him and he said he was just curious. that was after i said he was a stalker. haha. because he asked D and M if i was hot =.= then both said i was =.=' so not true. but then he suddenly ended the conversation after awhile. i dont know why :/

was it something i said? oh well. i'll just let it be (:

Hookay, now i think im done here. haha. tattaa ;D

tralaloves,

Syakirah Exellwood ♥

Kookie

Today i woke up and didn't feel so well to go to school so i continued sleeping. I wok up at 8 like that and i got a text message! from Lolita. :D haha

Then i studied abit and i chilled with family and then my dad asked me to go mandi so i did. He said the plan for today was :

1. Makaaaan

2. Send moon to her appointment.

3. Check how the house was doing.

4. To the doctors cause the three other daughters was sick (me, nuff and ray)

5. Home.

Okayy. I really loved the first one because of course, its foood. :P we ate at 99 steak and chops. yumm. not as yummy as before but its aiite :D

Then we sent moon to her appointment, we thought it was like an urgent appointment but it turned out to be a manicure appointment =.=' haha

We went to my tmn tun house! wheee. I checked out my room and i LOVE it! its so nice. they painted my room already and its regal blue. awesomeness :D

But then we had to go to the doctors ): The doctor said to my sister nuff, if the medication he's giving doesn't work, she has to go to the hospital mana entah to check if its H1N1 so in the mean time my mom said my sisters and I have to be self quarentined ): sucks okay! I can't go anywhere for the next few days. Oh well. Atleast i have time to study. PMR is like in less than 80 days people! Scary mary hary nation!

Speaking of PMR, i've got to go study now. Need to bulk up my maths skill. hee

Tataa.

tralaloves,

Syakirah Exellwood ♥

Open day

there was a report card day today but unfortunately, i didn't go. hehe

My mom said she wanted to go last night so i was like ah dammit! then this morning she said, "deq, tak payah pergi the open day lah"

I said "SURE!" dengan bangga nya. haha

In my heart i was like "yes! yes! yes! yes!" heee :D

Now im here and i need to got to the toilet.

I don't know why but i've been peeing a lot :S

tralaloves,

Syakirah Exellwood ♥

Klinik Koo

hello hooligans. Today i only went to school half a day cause i wasn't feeling very well.
After recess, I was coughing like mad and it has been going on for quite some time now :/
Its painful and tiring. I went to the doctors and the doctor said that this was a serious cough but thank god and Alhamdulillah it wasn't H1N1. The doctor said, if it was H1N1, i'd be very sick but i'm just okay though, the coughing is at a bad level.

Now i'm just laying on my bed just waiting for any text message. (loser) HAHA. And i'm sniffing that shirt. hee. smells goood :p
Only fatim knows what i'm talking about right fatimus hanus? *winkwink* :D

Okay, I am very tired now so yeah. tataa :)
To all my classmates in 3 Mawar especially Audrey, Fatimah, Sofea, Robyn and Azroy :
HOHOHAHA! I GOT TO GO HOMEEE. HEE. I LOVE YOU GUYSS ♥♥♥

tralaloves,
Syakirah Exellwood ♥

pick up that telephone

haha, don't ask why i put what i did as a subject. HAHA, its very the random. hoho
anywayss, i am so freaking bored and sleepy now. I went and visited my uncle just now )':
I wanted to cry when i looked at him. His whole arm and leg was swollen. So as his tummy ):
It was soo sad. He has cancer of unknown origin which means the doctors dont know where the cancer comes from. His organs are all working fine and he doesn't feel any pain but then there was positively something there that cause the swelling and everything.

But i was so tired i slept and my sister woke me up when we wanted to go home. heee.
Then i went to my cousins house to visit her and her new baby boy, aqiff. :D
So gerraaaammm! ngee. i feel like squeezing his little tiny head. haha.
Then went to ikano and ate manhattan fish market then now im here. haha.

Kay, i think im gonna hit the hay now. I have to wake up extra early tomorrow, i wanna sahur cuz im fasting. heee.

tataa. whee <<)

Tralaloves,
Syakirah Exellwood ♥

One night in town

yesterday i went to the bbq (more like potluck) at fareena's hse. hee. Best lah jugak. haha
but there wasn't much to do. We couldnt hear the music as it was low -____-'
But still had fun. we didn't have pictures. that's the lame part. ishh.

Then after it was over, went to rasta with razi and ashmen. Zul met us there.
We talked, merepeked and shisha.
Then i started getting sleepy.
But we walked around taman tun. You crazy? Taman Tun Okay! we walked to Zul's house. Bak kata Ashmen, we escorted him. hahaha.

Then razi and ashmen escorted me back home until my doorstep. hee felt like a princess. haha
I slept in the cab and i don't remember shit. haha
Then when i reached home, off to bed. ngantuk

I didn't go to maths tuition this morning. Tooooooo tired man.
Slept at 4 nearly 5 okay. but i had fun. hee :D
Felt like i sneaked out. HAHA :p

Tralaloves,
Syakirah Exellwood ♥

15 15!

Fatimmmaaahh! Happy 15th Birthday Bestfriend! Air Punch To the face! :DD
You know i'll always love you and support you. We homies girl! HENNKK'! hahaha.
May God bless you always (:
Its the besstt

tralaloves,
Syakirah Exellwood ♥

Sofea

HAHAHA! This is what sofea does when she sings. Haha.
Me, fatim and Robyn laughed like crazy when she did it. Haha!

Sofea, sofea. You're weird but i love you boogeyman. HAHAHA!

tralaloves,

Syakirah Exellwood

Pierced through the heart with an iron dagger

Omgodd! I gave this quote to a guy and omgod he put it on his myspace saying it was the sweetest thing someone had said to him *panicface* omgodomgod.
aiyayayaiii!
To know the quote, do ask for it personally aiite?

Tralalaloves,
Syakirah Exellwood

Drama nation

School Shinanigans :
Today is like soo like, eeee! Masa perhimpunan I found out something but i can't and wont tell you what it was.
Then M and I confronted A. We told her that we terasa what she said. Especially me cuz it is about me. >:(
Then When go back time, I hanged out with Fareena and Shahira. Then suddenly Mr. A came up to me and talked to me. He wanted to know about the cita going around. I was shocked that the news could spread so fast and to him cuz it does involve him. I was pissed, humiliated, dissappointed and frustrated but yet slightly happy at that point. Ishhh. Then me and Mr. A just made a conclusion to buat tatau and don't tell people.
But in a way im somewhat happy it happened cuz if it didn't, I wouldn't have been able to talk to Mr. A and he wouldn't have any reason to talk to me.

Badminton:
Hee, I played badminton with daddy and mums at 3 at the Tmn Tun Community Hall. :D
It was loads of fun but I got trashed by my mum! She is super awesome. Trust me. hahaha
While I was playing, there were a group of boys playing at the court beside mine. Ngeee, two of them were handsome. But one was short and the other was tall but still cute. teeeheee. :D
Thats all. haha (:

Tralalaloves,
Syakirah Exellwood

Before bedtime

I miss this,
Although it was something small,
But what it was,
I will not forget and i'll always miss ):

No matter what i say about you,
Whether its fake or true,
It's all to cover up
The fact i'm not over you.

Its hard to move on. People must think im crazy. They'll say "there are many other guys out there for you." but in my heart i'll reply "i know, but the feeling you gave me is hard to just drop and put it aside."
All i can say now, if ever you come back to me, i'll be here to give it another shot. But i'm not gonna wait. I'll try to move on along the way. Thats all


tralaloves,

Syakirah.

Fuckinhell

omgosh, eee, im so annoyed/pissed/sad/afraid/furious right now. One, because i can't change the layout for the friggin blog. -___-
Secondly, its so panaas. hahaha
Thirdly, adalah some'in some'in. HOHO.
And lastly I can't get him off my mind! Ishh. It's driving me nuttsoo!
Usually, everytime I wake up I'd have a smile on my face because I get to go to school to see him. Now, hmmph! jgn harap lah! When I reach school, the first thing I think about is, "oh gosh, another day to feel down, shit." It's a good thing i have my homies especially fatimah. haha. We'd do random stuff everyday. hehe ILOVEYOUTEMPLETEMPLETIMES! HEE :P
You know what, the thing that makes me sooooo pissed and angry the most is the reason you wanna stop.
YOU ARE SHY. =.=' freaking bullshit! dude, you can overcome it for gods sake. Its learnable. There is a thing called asking for advice you know. And the way you said it was just cruel okay. Have you ever thought to atleast reassure that i was doing okay? huh? I DIDN'T EVEN GET TO TELL YOU I WAS IN A BLOODY CAR ACCIDENT! I WAS PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE AND WRECKED. I WAS IN PAIN AND I WAS INJURED BUT REGARDLESS OF HOW I FELT, YOU ATTACKED ME!! Obviously you increased the pain for me. It wouldnt hurt as much if you'd find a suitable time to confront me. BUT NO! YOU DID IT WITHOUT THINKING!
And plus, you said the way you treat me is like you tengah main - mainkan i. You'd only feel that way if you were really playing around with my feelings. Were you? honestly? Did you even mean a single 'iloveyou' that you said? Did you?
To think i thought you were different. I backed you up, do you know that! I defended you! My friends and family told me that you arent worth it, a jerk, childish, immature and etc.. but do you know what i did? I WENT AGAINST THEM! I FREAKING BELIEVED YOUR CRAP! If you didn't want me to do that or anything or sacrifice, THEN YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE GIVEN ME FALSE HOPE! Now, i can't face you anymore. It hurts so much to even see your face. You really broke my heart
do you have any idea how strong the word 'iloveyou' is? Suuper. Thats for me la.
That word is so important to me because i have never felt loved in another way before. Yes i have felt loved by my family and friends but never in the relationship type. I've been soo curious to know how to feel the way everyone else feel when they're loved by their partners. And don't get me wrong, i'm not desperate. Just curious. And I don't just randomly pick a guy. Yes, Im a little choosy. Its very difficult for me to love someone but once I do, that person is the only one i'll pay attention to. Although other people who could be better shows up, I'll still stay loyal until that person hurts me. Like now for instance.
I guess it was my mistake thinking you could finally be the person who'd make me feel that way and putting my hopes too high. But at one point, I really thought I felt being loved by you but it didn't last that long. You changed. Suddenly everything seems to fall out of place. My dear darling, I really did and still do love you but I will never forget what you've done to me. Whether its good or bad. I shant forget it.
And I hope, one day you'd realize what you've done and make it a lesson that shouldnt be repeated in the future. But why the hell am I even saying this pun. Like you read my blog. =.=
Heck, I dont even think you know i have a blog and even if you did, i bet you'd care less than to read it. Whatever. Hmm. bye.

yes, i know i suck,
Syakirah

Thank you

Thank you for everything,

Thank you for making me wait like a loser,

Thank you for making me sacrifice,

Thank you for making me suffer,

Thank you for making me cry,

Thank you for giving me false hope,

Thank you for making me think your the best,

Thank you for giving me pain,

Thank you for making me happy,

Thank you for showing at least the slightest bit of love,

Thank you for saying 'iloveyou'

Thank you for missing me,

Thank you for loving me,

Thank you for the memories,

Thank you for the experience,

Thank you for you.

tralaloves,

Syakirah

Im afraid

I have a squeeky little voice and I hate the road, scared of it and no one can say shit about it.
I get scared for the slightest slam of a door any accidents advertisements.
I'm afraid when I see a junction.

tralaloves,
Syakirah