Officially Missing You

As my title has clearly stated. I'm officially missing you. I don't know whether or not I've made the right decision or not but what I'm feeling now makes me think I didn't. All the things I miss:

1. Our late night phone calls
2. Our adventurous outings
3. Our spontaneous dancing
4. The laughs we shared
5. The things we saw
6. Your adorably shy-ish-with-me personality
7. Basically, you.

I miss all of you. Everything that we did together and everything we were planning to do together. I've made a lot of mistakes and I don't know if I can ever get them back. I'm stuck on a fine line between two wants and I don't know which is best for me. I'm in a mess. I love the old but I'm missing the new. I really love the old. So much but I feel like the spark is fading. The fireworks aren't there constantly when its supposed to.

I need to go away. Far away so I'll know for sure who my heart longs for the most.
Till then,

out, ★

Chocolate cream chip for Ms/Mr .......

TOO MUCH ICE, TOO LITTLE ICE ETC......... 

You think making beverages is fun and easy? Well it IS fun but it definitely isn't easy! I thought it was simple. I was wrong. Absolutely W.R.O.N.G wrong! 

As you may have realized, I started making drinks today. Whee! but just cold drinks though. Still whee! Hehe but man it was difficult! You gotta remember the ID codes, what it meant and all that jazz. But it was fun. Real fun! 

Tomorrow i'll be working the night shift which is from 5pm to 11.30pm so i'll be making drinks. Yayerz! :B I've accomplished a lot of things in TWO days okay! Which is absurdly fast. The surprising thing is that my store manager wants me to learn about being a cashier by THIS FRIDAY! No shit! Haha. Kinda nervous but well, sooner or later I'll have to do it anyway. Hehe

I guess thats all for now. 

barista out ★ 

Its a little bit funny...

...This feeling inside...

Haloo, Ignore the title. Its just a name of a song I like by Elton John called Your Song. ♥

So if you read my previous post you should already know that I started work today! *applause* :B

I did the basic-est thing today. Well yeah duhh, it's only my first day. Terer gila aku dapat buat air terus on the first day. Lol

Anyway, yeah. I learned the ways of washing the dishes and my FIRST time using a DISHWASHER! Haha, I know I'm like a kid who's never been to a theme park but hello? Who uses a dishwasher at home? Not me so bite me for being uber excited :D

Other than cleaning, I learned how to warm up food! You may think "oh letak kat microwave, picit button je. Apa susah?" but its more than that. You have to remember what the food is called, what category its in, the meaning of the short forms on the microwave screen, multitasking, the correct way to carry the thing. Its a lot than what we usually do at home. Its mildly complicated but fun! ☺

OH! and today I conducted my first COFFEE TASTING. *crowd cheers* Haha. It was a lot of fun and my store manager said this "For a first timer you're actually not bad". More or less like that. Not to brag but it IS an accomplishment you know? So I'm proud. I really am. Alhamdulillah.

So, to put it simply, my first day as a barista wasn't all bad. My colleges were friendly and I'm happy. Hopefully it stays that way, InsyaAllah. I do not want last year to repeat. Tak pasal pasal I'm like the target and victim padahal I was just doing my job. -_- 

That concludes today's post. For now. Hehe :B

out, ★

Hello, how may I help you?

STARBUCKS!

So, today is the 19th of December and its my first day of work as a barista at Ikano's Starbucks! :B To be honest, I'm kind of nervous. I don't know what to expect and all and I'm scared like I'm the only nooby one there. Haha.

Well, right now I don't really know what to blog about because my mind is currently a bit blanked out so to cut to the chase, I'm a part-time barista in training! Whee! :D

mucho gracias ★  

After so long

YES! It has been like prehistoric time since I blogged. School and life itself has been awfully hectic. I couldn't keep up. Well, now I have all the time in the world. Free at last from the terror of exams and such - for now.

A lot of things has been happening. And when I mean a lot, really means A LOT. I've been feeling like I'm losing my friends. I must honestly say that I do not have that one person that I can rely to. That one person who's always with me. That one person who will be there for me through thick and thin. That one person I can call my best friend. I haven't found that person yet and I really want to.

Days after highschool has been quite lonely for me. I know I'm at fault too but I can't help but feel like I am not wanted. Even though I'm invited but it's out of courtesy. You know? I'm the kind of person who does not like being in a place where I'm neither needed nor wanted there. I know its a bit snobbish but I do that to avoid getting myself hurt and based on my past experience, I pretty much have a complete track record of being hurt and that's only by my peers. Excluding relationship.

I am definitely a pessimistic person, no doubt about that but i can't help it. The things I'm forced to go through are excruciatingly painful and I'm sick of it! I need happiness.

I shall continue in another point in time.

Till then,
Syakirah ♪

I think, i just think...

There's a possibility, i still love you since the last time I said it. Honestly, this doesn't happen, not to me. It all started from that simple dream. It was nothing but i don't know. It left a feeling that is killing me right now. I can't stop thinking of you but I know i can't be with you, and that's killing me even more. Love kills 

Help me spare the pain, please.

I don't exactly know how I feel. It all started with that dream. It changed every perception I had of you. I don't look at you the way I used to. Am I stupid for feeling this way? Is it wrong? Wait, yeah that's a stupid question, of course its wrong -_-

I feel like this is where I belong.

Maybe I'm a little naive but I can't help but to think that something could happen.

Maybe, possibly. Only time will tell and only God can decide my fate. 

Go with the flow lah conclusionnya

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I hate this feeling.

I love this feeling.

I want this feeling to stay.

Bite me, I'm confused k 

Been awhile

Yeah I know Its been awhile, bite me.
I've been quite busy with school and what not and i don't really have the time to blog. My life has become quite boring and so there isn't that much to blog about so yeah. Imma stop right here. but before that i must say that I wrote a song. I wrote it during a massive heartbreak so sue me for being so emo. I still haven't thought of the title yet though. but here it is :

Verse 1:

I never knew that this could happen

to me

And i cannot decide what to do

I know it isn't all that easy 

but I don't know if you're true

You might not be lying 

but you're not being honest too

You cannot deny it cause you know

I can't be fooled

Oh please think about it 

cause you know you have not thought this through

My darling do something please

You know how much I love you

Chorus :

I don't want us to end

I don't want you to leave

Cause my baby you're all that I need

You know I love you so

My baby please don't go

My days will be lonely 

Without you

Verse 2 : 

The days that we have spent together now

Well you know they cannot be replaced

Every memory keeps coming back in 

And especially when I see your face

Do you know that its hard for me

When this keeps happening to us

Its killing inside of me 

And I am just about to burst

There's nothing that can compare 

To this its torturous 

Why can't you just see my dear its clear

How much I care for us.

CHORUS (x2)

Thats all folks. see ya. :)

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Oh My Goshing! How long has it been since I blogged? dammmnnnn! Its already 2011 and yeah guess what?

I AM A SPM CANDIDATE!

aaaa, I'm soooo not excited. I'm totally screwwweeedddd! Okayyy but I do not want to spoil my mood by spoiling my mood so happy maybe i don't know news. My birthday is next week and I'll be turning 17 people! 17 yes. I am older and hopefully wiser. Pleaaasseee! I'm about to get my licence soon so hooray! 

I can drive to school lah. Terbaik lah! I like it lah! hahaha. That is if I pass and provided i have a car and provided I'm allowed to by the parentals. -_- so yeaaahh. Thats all. K bye xx