After so long

YES! It has been like prehistoric time since I blogged. School and life itself has been awfully hectic. I couldn't keep up. Well, now I have all the time in the world. Free at last from the terror of exams and such - for now.

A lot of things has been happening. And when I mean a lot, really means A LOT. I've been feeling like I'm losing my friends. I must honestly say that I do not have that one person that I can rely to. That one person who's always with me. That one person who will be there for me through thick and thin. That one person I can call my best friend. I haven't found that person yet and I really want to.

Days after highschool has been quite lonely for me. I know I'm at fault too but I can't help but feel like I am not wanted. Even though I'm invited but it's out of courtesy. You know? I'm the kind of person who does not like being in a place where I'm neither needed nor wanted there. I know its a bit snobbish but I do that to avoid getting myself hurt and based on my past experience, I pretty much have a complete track record of being hurt and that's only by my peers. Excluding relationship.

I am definitely a pessimistic person, no doubt about that but i can't help it. The things I'm forced to go through are excruciatingly painful and I'm sick of it! I need happiness.

I shall continue in another point in time.

Till then,
Syakirah ♪