Sunday, May 31, 2009

Im sorry :/

Oh my darling,
you know who you are,
Im sorry for what i did,
To you so far.

I didn't mean to do it,
Its just a small thing you know,
But please forgive me,
I don't want you to go.

You mean a lot to me,
No words can ever describe,
How i feel about you,
I would never lie.

I would notice you more in the future,
That i can promise you,
But just in case i don't,
Just remember I love you.

I'll say i'm sorry,
Now again once more,
My darling please,
I can't bear the pain anymore.

I love you so much,
I would do almost anything for you,
I just want to know,
If you still feel the same way too.

xoxo,
SYAKIRAH :/

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Say Goodbye (Temporarily) To Books :D

Today is the best exam day everrr! :D haha, i don't know why but i just feel goood today. heee. Probably its because its the last day for exam haha. Me and Fatimah has been acting all random and weird and psycho today. But it was sooo fun! :D HAHA, everytime before an exam, we would walk around and do U-Turns and Roundabouts. Actually its just the school corridors. haha. We walk around passing the 3 Teratai, Dahlia, Cempaka and Anggerik classes because we don't want the teacher in our class to catch us. Although all the teacher that was in our class we're super blurr but you know, we didn't wanna take any chances. haha
While we were walking at the ground floor, Ashmen keeps disturbing me by touching my neck and he is doing that because recently he found out that i was ticklish there =.='
Cm loser gila. haha. anyways. When he does that, Of course automatically i would feel ticklish and my head would go ketepi like this
hahaha. Something like that. haha. I was lazy to draw it properly. hehe :P
Then suddenly Ikmal came to me and asked me some questions. this is how the conversation goes:

Ikmal : Syakirah, kau ada computer tak?

Syaq : Yeah ada.

Ikmal : Ada printer tak?

Syaq : Yeah.

Ikmal : (in a whisper voice *haha*)Okay, kau boleh tolong aku tak?

Syaq : Yeah i guess so. Apa?

Ikmal : (still in a whisper voice) Kau boleh tolong printkan project aku tak?

Syaq : Yeah okay, boleh.

Ikmal : Okay, esok aku tak dtg tau, nnt balik aku tulis semua benda pstu azhar akan kasi kau.

Syaq : Uhm, Okay. haha (turn away to fatim)

Ikmal : Aku dah penat - penat tulis semua kat computer, lepas tu bila aku nak print, kotak merah keluar. yg detected virus tu. Aku mcm bangang je. Dah lah aku buat 3 benda je.
3 jam. eh 2 jam!

(and he did this)

Syaq : (looks and fatim and gave her the face)

Ikmal : (he repeats the explaination) HISSHH! (walks away to azhar and kesa)

Syaq and Fatim : (looks at each other) HAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

tu je. haha
it may nt be funny nw but if you were there it is sooo hilarious. haha
Okay i guess thats it. hehe.
Conclusion(to fatim) : I hate _ _ _ _. HAHA( inside joke jgn terasa aiite? ) (;

xoxo,
Syakirah <3

Sunday, May 17, 2009

16th May, 2008 equals to Excitement

Hohoheyy! On the 16th of May, Syaza and I went to KL. haha.
I slept at her house on the 15th after my grandmama's birthday. hehee
Okayy, first we ate breakfast with her mom and then her mom sent us to the Taman Melati LRT station. Then we bought tickets and i was so bloody excited. haha. Its been a while since i rode the LRT. I had a pretty bad phobia with them. When i was little, my mom's foot got stuck and my mom was giving me a piggy back ride and when her foot got stuck, i fell of and im scared till yesterday. haha heee.
Anywho, then we reached the perpustakaan at the Merdeka building tu and we got the information for the Sultan Abdul Samad Building. hee :P
We were like laughing all the way. Oh and there was this cute dude. He sat in front of me. But too bad, he had a girlfriend :/
Syaza and I both saw a lot of couples there at the library. We were like Grrhhh. Jealous! ishh. hahaha
They all look soooo cute studying together and all. Ish! I wish i could be like that. ):
Oh well, biar je lah i guess. hmph.
Continue, hee :P
Then we took the LRT to KLCC cuz i was hungrayy! haha.
Masa breakfast i only ate roti bakar kosong cicah with iced milo. ngahahaa.
So i wanted to eat but before that we met Yasir. To me, i call him Yasir Hornayyy. hahaha.
He met us at Topshop. He wanted to buy a baju so we teman him and he was like agak mabuk. haha.
He was merepek-ing here and there and jalan lelong. haha. It was funny lah.
He was having a headache and I happen to have a headache too masa tu so we(I) bought panadol. He bought water. Then we sat down and we each had one panadol. Syaza was healthy je. haha
But then the panadol was too big for me and Yasir. We wanted to cut it in half but susah. So Yasir had a brilliant idea and bite the panadol and drank the water. He said tak pahit so I pun gigit je lah. Then I drank the water jugak. haha.
At that moment i felt like a drug addict. hahaha. kinda high at that time. hee
After that we walked to Pavi and we ate KFC. hee. lapar gila kot. and Yasir ate my cheesy wedges =.=' haha. but i didn't mind lah. After we ate we talked and walked and talked and walked some more.
Yasir made us pusing pusing there in circles. Syaza said "You ni buat i pening je. From tak pening jadi pening" Something like that lah. haha
Then we again we walked around and help Yasir buy his baju. We went to Topman and he tried on a shirt and Syaza and I went and see if it was okay and it was. hee. Then he bought it.
Oh! i forgot. before that we saw this hardcore metal group dressed like ala ala Marilyn Manson type and omgod. scary okay! Yasir ran away because one of them was pointing at him so he ran off. haha. it was scary but yet funny. hehe.
Then Yasir had to go already. He went back with his neighbour and me and syaza went back too. We went back using the LRT at KLCC and our destination was Taman Melati. HOHO. haha
Then tu je lah. hehe. Take care. hee. Taddaataa. ;D

xoxo,
SYAKIRAH <3

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Cry Baby / Miss you

Omgod, I can't believe i acted like a super cry baby just now!
I feel like a total loser crying over a guy! Oh goshh!
Why do I feel this way? urrghh!
As the days pass, I feel more and more depressed and I don't know what to do anymore.
I am sad all the time and you know why? I'll tell you why!
It's because i miss those days where me and him used to hang out. The look on his face when he talks to me, those times when he gets super shy and starts biting his mouth when his voice changes, those times when we would talk on the phone for hours until we can't put down the phone because we don't want to and many many countless more.
AAH! I miss hanging out with him after school!
At this point, I don't even care if i only have the time to just see his face smiling especially if he's smiling at me.
That's enough for me right now.
I miss his cute text and his "i love you" messages.
I still keep them and occasionally when i have the time, I would go through and read them. Which makes me miss him even more because he's not doing it right now.
Oh my, I don't think i have ever felt this way about someone before. Even with my ex, I have never gone crazy over missing him.
I care less if he doesn't see me but with him, aah! I'm losing my mind over this simple thing!
)':
I miss him like crazy and i don't know how long can i stay this way.
I feel like my heart is shattering day by day as my missing towards him grows.
I have never been a cry baby about this before.
I am an emotional person. (VERY emotional) but this is a shocker for me to be too emotional.
I guess that's it, Tata titi toto

xoxo,
SYAKIRAH )':

Friday, May 1, 2009

Crushed

I have recently given up all hope i have on that person whom i love so much. I thought he loved me too. Thats what he said but i guess he was just fooling around.
I know now that i deserve way better than what i got. I just need to let it come to me instead. I can't be the one finding the one anymore. IM DONE
I can't believe i let myself get hurt again. AGAIN. Okay, 1st time was a killstrike, 2nd time(which is now) is a blow. Now i really hope 3rd times the charm.
Oh well. Now that i have nothing else to distract me, i can now focus more in my studies. I have freakin' PMR this year! gaah!
Okay thats all, (:

xoxo,
SYAKIRAH <3

Renovation

Oohlala, my house in Tmn Tun's toilet is already finished! heee :P
I am so happy. my toilet looks omgosh lawa gilaa.
Thanks daddy! ILY hehe
Okay thats it. haha.

xoxo,
SYAKIRAH <3