Cry Baby / Miss you

Omgod, I can't believe i acted like a super cry baby just now!
I feel like a total loser crying over a guy! Oh goshh!
Why do I feel this way? urrghh!
As the days pass, I feel more and more depressed and I don't know what to do anymore.
I am sad all the time and you know why? I'll tell you why!
It's because i miss those days where me and him used to hang out. The look on his face when he talks to me, those times when he gets super shy and starts biting his mouth when his voice changes, those times when we would talk on the phone for hours until we can't put down the phone because we don't want to and many many countless more.
AAH! I miss hanging out with him after school!
At this point, I don't even care if i only have the time to just see his face smiling especially if he's smiling at me.
That's enough for me right now.
I miss his cute text and his "i love you" messages.
I still keep them and occasionally when i have the time, I would go through and read them. Which makes me miss him even more because he's not doing it right now.
Oh my, I don't think i have ever felt this way about someone before. Even with my ex, I have never gone crazy over missing him.
I care less if he doesn't see me but with him, aah! I'm losing my mind over this simple thing!
)':
I miss him like crazy and i don't know how long can i stay this way.
I feel like my heart is shattering day by day as my missing towards him grows.
I have never been a cry baby about this before.
I am an emotional person. (VERY emotional) but this is a shocker for me to be too emotional.
I guess that's it, Tata titi toto

xoxo,
SYAKIRAH )':