Things has been on the rough side lately for me. I've been feeling lonely and depressed. Yes, I am aware that I'm still young and I still have my whole life ahead of me but time has changed and the world is advancing at full throttle and everyone has to keep up to speed.
Anyway, I'm a sensitive person and the littlest of things could hurt me. But only when I have so much hope and belief and trust in that particular thing such as love.
When it comes to love, faith is always there. Though fear does exist but its something I always ignore. Which in my case is bad as people tend to hurt me. No matter what I do or try to do or even didn't even get the chance to do, people hurt me.
I may not have the first impression everyone wants as I am definitely the type of person you'd need to get to know but tell me this, how will that happen if people shut me down before I get the chance to get to know me. This sort of thing is what makes me difficult to make friends. I'm simply afraid. Hence, the loneliness.
Enough about the emotional sappy stuff for now. I know I will have plenty of those yet to come. Trust me.
Happiness, however, is rare.
I recently joined a contemporary dance class and it reminded me how much I love dancing and how it made me happy. Who am I kidding, engineering? I know I would do well but the passion isn't there.
I love performing and it makes me feel good. Though insecurities never fails to bring me down but it doesn't matter because its what I love to do. Hopefully, an opportunity strikes. It would mean absolutely the world to me.
Unfortunately, thats all I have time for.
mucho gracias, ♥
