Saturday, August 28, 2010

What am I now? 
I lost friends
I lost focus
I lost trust
I lost myself


I wanna be happy without losing those I love.
But I can't.
Now I know I have to choose
I know what decision that must be made
I just don't have the heart to make the decision
Love is holding me back.
I wanna keep it and still be happy.
I don't want to let go.

Friday, August 27, 2010

And when my eyes are closed i see you for what you truly are, which is uglayy!

HAHAHA! 

I know, random title, I took it from the movie 'she's the man'. Hehe, Okay, so i think it has been a while since i actually updated fully about me and my life. Not that anyone actually reads my blog posts. Its just self expression. Hehe.

Currently
Where am I?
I am in the car otw to my kampung in Johor Bahru. Me visiting grandmama and going to singapore! Hehe, I do miss my kampung. Usually i only go there only for raya but then this weekend is a bit of an exception. I'm currently listening to a debate between my dad and my sister about buying an iPad for my sister's fiance. Funny funny. She wants to get a loan from my dad! 

What am I doing?
I am onlining in the car. I am so bored and I have a massive period pain and gosh its killing me softly. Me hurting :(

How's school?
School is normal. Its the same as always, I'm getting super super lazy to do my math and add maths work. Its so unusual for me to be that way. For add maths is not really much difference, though there is but not much. HAHA. But for math? I love math! but I haven't been completing my work. The most complete book amongst the subjects, I would have to say physics and chemistry. For physics, its impossible to not get your work done. Especially having a teacher like Cik Liang. You WILL complete your work. haha

Friends?
Friends are just great. I'm kinda missing some friend moments. Nowadays, I haven't been getting any texts from them. I shall not mention any names. They know who they are. I'm sorry if you feel offended. I just sometimes feel left out which makes me don't know how to act around them anymore. Lately i've  been flying solo, either that or with my boyfriend. But i don't really mind though. I gives me time to think about my wants and needs and makes me realize about the things that needs to be done to improve myself for the better for my future. 

Boyfriend?
Everything is going great with him. I've had a couple of unforgettable moments with him. Kinda mostly the things i've always dream of getting  and I finally got it. And i am so happy and thankful that I got to spend those moments with him and no one else. Yeah people always say that highschool love never lasts but my mind doesn't think that way. I believe that if two people are meant to be together, it doesn't matter how early they start. Probably you all are thinking, 'Oh bullshit!' but no, you might wanna bear in mind that it could be possible. Rare but it is definitely possible. I admit, I am a sucker for love and I love how it makes me feel. If my relationship can last, then I'll make sure I'll put in as much effort as I possibly can to make it last a lifetime. All because of love. Never play with love cause it makes people do crazy things. Thats how powerful it is.

Okay, I don't know what to type anymore. haha! I guess thats probably it i guess. hehe. mucho gracias(me dunno how to spell) HAHA

Sunday, August 22, 2010

It's the 7th!


To cut to the chase, yesterday was the best day i've ever had in my entire life of having a boyfriend. hehehe :D

I'll give you the higlights of the day. hehe.

All in all, yesterday was the best anniversary a girl could ask for. (': ♥♥

HAPPY 7TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY BABY!




Monday, August 16, 2010

Question mark


I think.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

This or that?

Say 'yes'? 
Or confess

Say 'no'?
Or act like you don't know

Be cool?
Or feel like a fool

Act fine?
Or rewind

Believe?
Or be deceived

Give up?
Or stay strong

Play along?
Or move on.