Blockage

I'm missing my pasts. Because my ego is as big as my head, I rarely admit it. Now I am. As much as I say that i'm over it and i'm okay and all. No, that's all a cover up. I'm not over it and i'm not okay. Not even a slight bit. Even though i'm not over it and not okay, it doesn't mean i'm not trying. Oh gosh i am. You've got no idea how much effort i've put in to make me get over it. I'm not looking for a replacement or a new person to help me forget, no. I want to make it through without having anyone(significant other) with me. I might just end up hurting him. 


I am currently liking this person but i know that i shouldn't. I shouldn't. I can't. I'm confused and I'm going crazy right now. I'll try to get through it. hmm. Goodbye,

out, ★