I feel as if i am not special to him. I have done a lot of things to prove how much i care for him and i've done what i can to put in as much effort possible to keep us going but i feel like i'm doing everything. What is he doing to prove how he feels and what is he doing to make an effort?
I do see a little but that's it. JUST a little. He can't expect me to do everything. I envy most girls who has the type of guy who is not afraid nor shy to admit that he loves the girl and would have guts to show to the world that, that girl is his and that girl is special. not just any other typical girls. She is someone special.
Not that i care about the showing the world part but to be one of those girls who feels special to a guy (especially the guy you love) would be nice. I am thankful i even have a guy who loves me but how do i really know if he really does? I can compare him with a number of other guys who actually express how he feels and who is better but in the end i still chose that particular guy.
I am the type of girl who doesn't care what people say or thinks about what she does. That's their problem. As long as i am happy, then that's good enough but when you have a guy its different. As long as both of us is happy then im good but right now, i am not happy. I don't feel special. I feel like what we are will only stay in school. That's not cool. I see other couples out there and im jealous. totally jealous. but i just bear with it and live with it.
xoxo,
SYAKIRAH :'/
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