Gotcha

I thought I was strong enough to handle it but I can't! I can't! 
Please stop. Ignore what I said before. I do mind. A lot. It's killing me inside and out. 
Ripping my heart slowly in tiny micro sized pieces and I feel the pain each day without fail.
I'm sorry but you can't blame me for acting this way.


I don't know if I can handle even facing you. I'd feel awkward and angry.
If you'd still wanna go on with it, I'm afraid I can't take being around that.
It's bad enough to know the truth.
Now seeing this happening in front of my eyes is just unbearable.


It's too much for me.
Take the opportunity if you'd like to.
Just know, I don't have your back on this one.
I don't want and can't bear to be or get involved in it. 
Its hurting me more than anything has ever hurt me before. 
This is by far the worse. 


So, Im not going to be a bad person and stop you from feeling how you're feeling.
Im backing off.
Just so you could be happy, I'll sacrifice my heart.
Please don't change your mind. 
It's hard enough for me to do this.
It'll be harder to know that i'm doing this and it ended up being for nothing. 
I'll say goodbye to my heart now.

out, ♥  

They are just simply not helping

out, ♥ 

This the sound of settling

I've never felt this way before but i know i've got to get away from this feeling.

I feel as though somebody has just ripped my heart out from my chest and stabbing it several times from the back with a razor sharp blade.

It's not a good feeling. I hate it. Something or someone please distract me! It's killing me softly. I'm suffering in silence.

out, ♥

Went to Ou with Fareena on Saturday. Lepak lepak then pergi hartamas.

Met Ashmen, Zul, Razi, Fifi, Robyn, Jason, Shaun. 

Had an awesome time. (:

Wouldn't trade them friends for anything.

out, ♥

Come on and love me now

I wanna take you in in in and make you mine.
I wanna make everything seem like it's as perfect as the nights sky.
I wanna grip your arms and hold it tight and hope I don't have to let go.
I wanna be that close to perfect bitch that you could love endlessly without any complaint.
I wanna love you no matter what despite your weaknesses.





This would be great if it was dedicated to a real human being. But sadly nope. Butni feel like I don't want to be involved with anybody. I'll just see how it goes. I love being single. I'm good at it. (:


out, ♥

One part brave, three parts fool

Say goodbye my friend. its over over over. Gained a friend, lost a friend. Sad sad times. BEAR WITH IT DUMBASS!

p/s; this is to no one. im saying this to myself.

out, ♥

have you ever felt like your heart is falling from the tallest tower to the ground?

You know what?

I think i may have just fallen in love with someone i'm not allowed to
HELP!

out, ♥

I HAVE NEVER FELT HAPPIER IN MY LIFE.

I ONLY FEEL LIKE I WANT A SPECIAL PERSON IN MY LIFE WHEN ACTUALLY I DON'T NEED ONE. ALL I NEED IS MY FAMILY AND MY FRIENDS. INCLUDING THE ONE'S WHO JUST BECAME A FRIEND TO ME. 

MY NAME IS SYAKIRAH AND I AM SO THANKFUL FOR WHAT I HAVE.

I WOULD BE SELFISH IF I WOULD SAY THAT MY LIFE IS INCOMPLETE WHEN IT ALREADY IS.

out, ♥ 

 

Feeling Sorry - Paramore

One of those days, lucky me

Omgosh! you have no idea what i have been through! my internet connection like fuck! grrh. Apparantly now im kinda lucky annnddd im using my sisters macbook so yeah. haha.


Okayy! you know, after pmr, i was a total loser because i think i was the only one who stayed at home like a good girl =.=. BUTTTTTT. Yesterday was probably the best night i have ever had after PMR. I wont lie. It was soo awesome! My sister's boyfriend, bill and his brother yik came over to our house and hanged. Then all of us played wii. heee. Yik beated me in boxing! but i beated him in tennis. haha. It was sooo funny. I couldn't stop laughing and honestly, after boxing, both of us were sweating. haha. Then we had like a door-malfunction moment. 


After that, nuff invited me and yik to join her and bill for a movie night so i obviously i said okay and i got ready. I bathed and all and then we were off! We ate dinner at padang kota, kota dmnsara first and then we went to bill's house because he and yik wanted to change his clothes. While waiting, i played the guitar. Then dumdumdum we went to cineleisure and guess what. THE MOVIE THEATRE WAS CLOSED! Like whathefuck! haha, after alotta cursing and maki-ing, we went to GSC and we watched Pandorum. I sat in the middle of nuff and yik because i didn't wanna sit paling hujung because i was afraid. haha. Me and yik kept talking and talking and complaining about the characters in the movie while watching it. It was nice. heee.


Then after that we went to minum minum for a while at some mamak and we played cards. first we played bluff. I lost because im soooo not good at bluffing. haha. then we play chotytie(i dont know the spelling haha) and i won! because i love that game. OH OH THEN WE PLAYED SNAP! KECOH HABIS MACAM RUMAH SENDIRI. HAHA. THEN THE BEST PART WAS WE PLAYED HEART ATTACK, HOMAGOSH IT WAS A HEART ATTACK. HAHA. POOR NUFF AND YIK. THEY GOT HIT THE MOST. HEEE. OKAY THATS IT. JUST UPDATING AND LETTING YOU KNOW THAT IM HAPPY AND HYPED UP. IM THANKFUL I HAVE A SISTER LIKE NUFF TO TAKE ME OUT LIKE THAT. HEEE ♥

out, ♥