Gotcha

I thought I was strong enough to handle it but I can't! I can't! 
Please stop. Ignore what I said before. I do mind. A lot. It's killing me inside and out. 
Ripping my heart slowly in tiny micro sized pieces and I feel the pain each day without fail.
I'm sorry but you can't blame me for acting this way.


I don't know if I can handle even facing you. I'd feel awkward and angry.
If you'd still wanna go on with it, I'm afraid I can't take being around that.
It's bad enough to know the truth.
Now seeing this happening in front of my eyes is just unbearable.


It's too much for me.
Take the opportunity if you'd like to.
Just know, I don't have your back on this one.
I don't want and can't bear to be or get involved in it. 
Its hurting me more than anything has ever hurt me before. 
This is by far the worse. 


So, Im not going to be a bad person and stop you from feeling how you're feeling.
Im backing off.
Just so you could be happy, I'll sacrifice my heart.
Please don't change your mind. 
It's hard enough for me to do this.
It'll be harder to know that i'm doing this and it ended up being for nothing. 
I'll say goodbye to my heart now.

out, ♥