It wouldn't kill you, you know

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 Content may or may not cause guilt or anger or whatever. Read with caution. Or not, dont read at all.

For starters, im gonna say that i have never felt so left out before. Lately, I've been dealing with a lot emotionally and also physically so im not really stable now and to top it off, My friends are like not how they used to be. Heck, to tell you the truth, this has been going on for quite a while now. At first, I thought, "hey, its not problem. Im not gonna mind. Its alright" but now, it has spread. And it hurts. It hurts for me to always be the last person to know whats going on. And even thats indirectly. It wouldn't kill if you updated me once in a while too you know. Its not that im demanding it but once in a while, it would be nice to actually feel included and a part of them too. I know that some of you update each other by sending text to multiple people at once. but seldom was i included it that list.


Im sorry if i have ever done anything that might have been over the limit and made you guys feel upset. But honestly, i know it wasn't intentional. Yes, I may have not been the best friend to some of you these couple of years but im trying to be the best i can be now. Im really trying. At this point, only Fatimah Hanif understands how i feel because she's going through the same thing. So im so thankful that at least i know that she is there with me and we can help each other go through this phase together right fatim? (:
 I'll do my best to not make you think the worst of me. 


So conclusion is that im sorry if this may make some people terasa but its how i feel and to those that don't feel anything, well. I guess your heart isn't big enough to let this sink through or in other words, heartless. Sorry. 
Well, take care. I love you guys mucho's. 

out, ♥