Can you ever tell what lies beneath words we say?

The answer is no. We can't. Though many of us try very hard to figure out this complicated, mind-boggling and arcane mystery. Those who are simply superb take it lightly as they could figure ones meaning in a snap. But what about those who don't comprehend what those type of people who'd like to say words as though as it is an abstract painting? Yes, in certain situations where it isn't crucial you could use them but when you're in a situation where saying stuff straight to the point is necessary, why not put aside the abstract for a moment and just say it as it should be. Not all can catch up and get the meaning straightaway. It would be much easier. I'm not saying that saying stuff indirectly is wrong and we shouldn't do it, no. Heck, i do it to. I love doing it but when it comes to the point where its best not to, then i'd say it straight on. 


p/s : This does not point out to anybody. This is in general because basically, i've got nothing to blog about. 

out, ★

I'm taking a break from saying I love you to a significant other. There's no point in saying something that is not entirely
true and sincere. I've got my reasons and my
secrets that does not include anybody except certain somebody(s).

I'll stay this way as long as possible but should there be someone who happens to pass by and my feelings towards him(if i have any) is true and if my feelings that has been holding me back all this time has pass, then who knows I might consider. Maybe.

I Feel Pathetic, 

I Am Pathetic.

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Blockage

I'm missing my pasts. Because my ego is as big as my head, I rarely admit it. Now I am. As much as I say that i'm over it and i'm okay and all. No, that's all a cover up. I'm not over it and i'm not okay. Not even a slight bit. Even though i'm not over it and not okay, it doesn't mean i'm not trying. Oh gosh i am. You've got no idea how much effort i've put in to make me get over it. I'm not looking for a replacement or a new person to help me forget, no. I want to make it through without having anyone(significant other) with me. I might just end up hurting him. 


I am currently liking this person but i know that i shouldn't. I shouldn't. I can't. I'm confused and I'm going crazy right now. I'll try to get through it. hmm. Goodbye,

out, ★

No pain, no game

I'm in pain. )':

Second day with braces and it hurts like hell. Now I know how the others feel. Gosh. 

Come on syaq! It's to make your teeth prettier. It's for a good cause. Shizzz.

It's been a week since school started. Most of my teachers are awesome. Ada yg gila. 

The subjects are just fine. So far, I can cope with all except add maths. I dah start confuse. HAHA. Thats all. hee :D

out, ★

Wooh, i just finished ALL my homeworks that I have. Gosh it was tiring. I wanted to be in sub science and this is what i'll have to cope with. Dayummn. 
Anyways, I got my braces fixed today. hehe. While they were putting in on, It didn't hurt. But now? Now the pain starts. I can't bite or eat. Trust me, I tried )':
I look at certain people with braces, they look good. But I think that i'm not suitable wearing braces. I feel ugly. Like ugly betty. Serious. But other people look just fine. I'm jealous. Oh well :/ 
I'm gonna eat some medicine, wash up and hit the hay now. See ya! Skaadushh 

out, ★

P.S I LOVE YOU,

probably one of the sweetest love story ever made. ♥

out, ★

Two is better than one.

Repeat tonight and every other time i spend with you over and over again please. 

I like it this way. Please don't change.

Keeping a secret, 

I shall never tell a soul,

If i did i would find,

Deep in my heart will be a hole.

I will always love you no matter what. Stupid decision but my heart won't let me let you go. Apparently, my heart still belongs to you.

out, ★

Me and my heart we got issues

Hey there! I just got back from school. hee. I got what I wanted! Sub Science. hee :D 
I was so happy until i actually cried. I know, tahpape gila but I felt so emotional because I didn't get an A for science yet i'm in sub science. I'm so thankful. Though, I've got no friends in that class ): but it's alright. I'll manage. Hopefully Razi masuk my class. hee :D


Anywho, The new subjects i'll be learning are, Accounts, Physics, Chemistry and Add Maths. :O
Scared but excited at the same time. hee. Alright, i'ma go now. hehe. Toodles! Skaadushh

out, ★

Oh, please please please, don't leave me alone..

...DON'T LEAVE ME BY MY OWN.

HAHA, don't mind the title and the sentence above. It's just what me and yik made up just now during work. haha. He did a lot of things that made me feel geram. Not geram, marah. But geram nak peluk. haha. Oh especially when he makes his faces. Goshh I can go crazy which I always do with him. Saaaayang Haritz. ♥

Anyways, today is my last day of work and tomorrow is school! :O I'm excited yet nervous. I'm uber anxious to know what stream am I put into. hee. This year, i'm gonna change for the better.

My 2010 resolutions: 

1. Study hard

2. Complete all homeworks and class works(insyaallah)

3. Keep away of unnecessary stuff

4. Cut the drama rama

5. Focus

6. Tone my body

7. Clear my face

8. Master the guitar

9. Master the keyboard

10. Get myself active in the Theater. (KLPAC)

11. Audition for competions(if any) for confidence and learning experience (:

*thats all i've got so far. haha (:

Okay, I've to go to sleep soon. So i'ma finish my preparation for school tomorrow. I'm beat. whooh! 

out, ★