Saturday, July 13, 2013

Butterflies, don't fly away.

Life has been such a bumpy ride lately, a rollercoaster. But that's life. You can't have it all, all the time. There will come a time where you are at your worst and also your best. I was not in the best state I can be last month. I was stressed, annoyed, insecure and just plain sad. Couldn't help but to feel like that at the time but it's natural and I knew that I'll get back up and that's what happened.

I got back up. With the help of my family, my two beloved roommates, my oh so loving coursemates and another person who should remain nameless for the moment - let's call him, Anonymous. So, I've been spending a lot of time with my two roommates, Afiqah and Zulaika (unofficial roommate). I don't have that many girl friends so spending time with them really makes me happy. Honestly, I do not know how they feel about me being around them but I am honestly thankful to have them around me. I enjoy their company.

My coursemates? Well, I recently started wearing hijab and I am touched by how supportive they are of it. You know, I would never thought that I could clique with them but I was absolutely wrong. They are just as crazy as I am and it's awesome. To have these smart people who are not only smart but not boring! They are far from boring and trust me, they know how to have fun. They made bearing with EE Engineering a lot easier because they are so helpful. They aren't selfish when it comes to sharing knowledge and helping out. They are family. We are one family and I'm happy to be a part of that family.

So about Mr. Anonymous. I haven't known him for very long but I want to. I wanna get to know him. I believe in fate and the fact that everything happens for a reason. I don't know if this is fate or anything but that's where faith comes along. Personally, it is extremely difficult for me to actually fall for someone. I'm not being choosy, it's just the heart saying that he's not the one. And because I am easily annoyed. I cannot stand stalkers who has to search my name in Google to know more about me or rely on reading my tweets to know how I'm currently feeling. I'm a social network addict but when it comes to relationships, I do not believe in using the social network to mainly communicate or know more about the person. So back to Mr. Anonymous. As of now, July 13, 2013 (not saying I'll be certain of this feeling in the future), he's awesome. I won't describe why here because well, I don't want to jinx it but I will say this. He makes me want to care. There's this feeling inside me which I can't really tell if I've felt it before or not but I want it to stay.

Life is good when it's good. I have got to remind myself that that could easily change so that I won't take things for granted. I'd share more but until I feel comfortable doing so, this will be it.

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