Eid! :D

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI EVERYBODY! ♥

I would also like to ask for forgiveness to those whom i've wronged in the past. Whether it was intentional or accidental, i apologize.

Everybody makes mistakes and its time to start fresh again.

I've a good feeling and I feel so excited :)

Again, selamat hari raya, maaf zahir dan batin ♥

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Formspringg

HAHA, i just read all my haters post in formspring again. Daamnnn, that was a good laughh,

I guess they really just didn't have a life then. Haha, what a pity.
Funny stuff man, funny stuff. hahaha

It all was fun

Well, I can say I enjoyed last night (:


I had a buka puasa thingy at my house with all my family, aunts, neighbour cousins and uncles. I didn't eat much, i don't know why. 


Why I enjoyed last night? I got to spend time with my cousins, Nana and Najwa. It's been like totally ages since I actually hanged out with them. I really miss them like crazy! The three of us went to rasta. First we hanged out with entah sape entah I don't know and after that we joined our other cousin Afiqah at coffee hut. hehe


Then I saw Haider. Said hi and all and he called and asked if he could join us. So he did. We all played Taiti(I don't know the spelling) haha. After that, amin called and told me he was going to Damansara area so I invited him over.


He came with his brother, Iqbal(Soooooo handsome!) and his friends. They all lepak-ed and after a while, I joined them. Then after that I went home. I feel good last night (:

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p/s; Damn, it's been so long since I've been to rasta. Especially with my cousins. I kinda miss going there with them and playing cards all night long. Those were the days. ♥

Maybe I need to reevaluate things

Why is it so hard to find people who won't stab you in the back? Or spread RUMORS? Or LIE? Or just simply fucking TWO-FACED? 


Maan, i've tried so hard being nice to everybody and pleasing everybody, doing whatever the hell I can to help them when they need me. Practically tried every fucking thing i fucking can to fucking give them what they fucking want! Yet, still, what I got? Rumors spreaders, backstabbers, liars, two-facers. Damn, its a hard knock life.


To think, the person who I thought knew me and how i was and acted said those load of bullcraps. 
No wonder I have issues with trust nowadays.
Sorry for the certain vulgarity in my language but damn you have no idea how I feel right now.
But note, I'm not referring to alotta humans, just a few. 

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p/s; My boyfriend and I have never done whatever the hell you guys think we have. For those who were dumb enough to actually think that, well, go fuck yourself. Reti haa nak tanya. Suka hati je nak sebarkan cerita bongok. I don't take crap. You wanna make up stories? Do it about yourself. Leave mine out of the picture, please.

I'm right where i belong :)

YAY! Happy days are here again! :D

I've reconnected with most of my friends which i must plead guilty, abandoned, but now i'm back! There are still a few that i haven't gotten in touch with but i promise i will, once i see them. 

I just feel so good and i wouldn't wanna jinx anything but things has been going quite well, i feel happier and things just seems to be falling into place. I just feel sooo good! No wonder i love wednesdays. hehe :D

I love you girls! You guys know who you are. ♥ ♥

Thats for my friends, as for my boyfriend, i am happy and proud to say that we're already in our 7th month and yes, we're still going strong apart from the misunderstandings, arguments, fights and all that load of shit, we're still together till this day and i cant ever be more happier. 

We've grown a lot stronger together. Both of us realize things we never would have without each other. I'm so happy dear boyfriend is trying to understand me more and things are just getting better in general. Hopefully it'll continue. (: I love you sooo much Muhammad al-Amin bin Zainal Abidin ♥

Was bored, this is the result

YES MAN I KNOW I'M VAIN

YEAH SO WHAT? 

What am I now? 
I lost friends
I lost focus
I lost trust
I lost myself


I wanna be happy without losing those I love.
But I can't.
Now I know I have to choose
I know what decision that must be made
I just don't have the heart to make the decision
Love is holding me back.
I wanna keep it and still be happy.
I don't want to let go.

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And when my eyes are closed i see you for what you truly are, which is uglayy!

HAHAHA! 

I know, random title, I took it from the movie 'she's the man'. Hehe, Okay, so i think it has been a while since i actually updated fully about me and my life. Not that anyone actually reads my blog posts. Its just self expression. Hehe.

Currently

Where am I?

I am in the car otw to my kampung in Johor Bahru. Me visiting grandmama and going to singapore! Hehe, I do miss my kampung. Usually i only go there only for raya but then this weekend is a bit of an exception. I'm currently listening to a debate between my dad and my sister about buying an iPad for my sister's fiance. Funny funny. She wants to get a loan from my dad! 

What am I doing?

I am onlining in the car. I am so bored and I have a massive period pain and gosh its killing me softly. Me hurting :(

How's school?

School is normal. Its the same as always, I'm getting super super lazy to do my math and add maths work. Its so unusual for me to be that way. For add maths is not really much difference, though there is but not much. HAHA. But for math? I love math! but I haven't been completing my work. The most complete book amongst the subjects, I would have to say physics and chemistry. For physics, its impossible to not get your work done. Especially having a teacher like Cik Liang. You WILL complete your work. haha

Friends?

Friends are just great. I'm kinda missing some friend moments. Nowadays, I haven't been getting any texts from them. I shall not mention any names. They know who they are. I'm sorry if you feel offended. I just sometimes feel left out which makes me don't know how to act around them anymore. Lately i've  been flying solo, either that or with my boyfriend. But i don't really mind though. I gives me time to think about my wants and needs and makes me realize about the things that needs to be done to improve myself for the better for my future. 

Boyfriend?

Everything is going great with him. I've had a couple of unforgettable moments with him. Kinda mostly the things i've always dream of getting  and I finally got it. And i am so happy and thankful that I got to spend those moments with him and no one else. Yeah people always say that highschool love never lasts but my mind doesn't think that way. I believe that if two people are meant to be together, it doesn't matter how early they start. Probably you all are thinking, 'Oh bullshit!' but no, you might wanna bear in mind that it could be possible. Rare but it is definitely possible. I admit, I am a sucker for love and I love how it makes me feel. If my relationship can last, then I'll make sure I'll put in as much effort as I possibly can to make it last a lifetime. All because of love. Never play with love cause it makes people do crazy things. Thats how powerful it is.

Okay, I don't know what to type anymore. haha! I guess thats probably it i guess. hehe. mucho gracias(me dunno how to spell) HAHA

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It's the 7th!

To cut to the chase, yesterday was the best day i've ever had in my entire life of having a boyfriend. hehehe :D

I'll give you the higlights of the day. hehe.

All in all, yesterday was the best anniversary a girl could ask for. (': ♥♥

HAPPY 7TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY BABY!

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Question mark

I think.

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