PSYCHADELIC

I don't know why i'm like so totally not in the mood right now. Probably stress because my bowling tournament is next week and I haven't been doing well during the training sessions and my family aren't helping making me feel better. Instead they criticize me and tell me to do this and do that. I know what I should do already, it's just that the pressure of the competition being so near is making me lose focus. At this point i just need the loved ones to be here for me and tell me "its okay, just do your best and you'll be great. We'll still love you no matter what." I just need them to say that )':


I can't help but break down and cry right now. There are also another thing causing me to be in a bad mood right now but I can't do anything about it. I just hope he understands that I really need him right now to calm me down and support me. If he's in a bad mood, i'll also be in a bad mood. Especially not knowing why he's in a bad mood drives me crazy but I can't deal with that right now. I need to focus on the tournament so i'm so hoping he can be the person to liven my days during the tournament so I can feel happy hence, focus but that would be too much too ask from one person. I don't want to be demanding. I don't wanna force him to do what I ask him to. Just that his happy mood and happy company is just enough for me right now.

out, ★