Eenie Meenie Minie Mo Lover

Today was great. Everything went just great until 6.30+ but i won't say what happen then.
Today I had school of course. It wasn't boring. I had fun! Then after school I waited for amin as usual and walked with him and aizat to the school main gate. Then we waited for aizat to get changed. At first, the plan was that amin and I was supposed to go to ou and watch a movie with azroy but then he, aizat and haider ended up in my house. They hung out there while i printed out lyrics for the jamming session. We had alotta laughs and we waited for syaza to come to my house cause she wanted to eat and then we were off to Akakarya :D


We saw danial, fareena and nadiah was already there so then we hung out for a bit then we went in studio 2 and jammed till we can't no more. Haha. I sang till I lost my voice! Then amin and I walked back to school and we met Fatim so we lepaked together then I went home feeling sad and then I ate and now i'm here. Tadaaa.


I've bowling training tomorrow and Friday. The tournament is next week from Monday - Thursday so I won't be coming to school for that long )': Imma miss my friends and amin fo'sho so so much. I'm pretty nervous about tomorrow though it's just training. Its just that its the fact i'll probably be the only one using the house ball and house shoes. So cam yeah :\ 
Oh well, wish me luck anyways! Okay thats it.

Go 
One Hour Later! ♥

out, ★

Luck of the Syaq

Whooh! Okay, Today was super tiring and super fun! :D I felt good the whole day oh yeah. haha :D First, I went to school like normal. I brought my books for before recess only because after recess I had bowling competition. So I went to Sunway Pyramid with Encik Ishak and then played bowling. This tournament is like to choose who will be representing Petaling Utama. Each of us played 4 games. Gosh, it was fun but yet scary and my heart was beating so fast because I was super nervous. ngahaa :P


Then when the game ended, We had to wait for the results. Only 4 people in each category will be chosen and guess what! I'm one of them. HEHEHEH. I'm representing Petaling Utama with 3 other girls. Hehe, it was shocking for me because the others all had their own bowling ball, shoes and gears and such and I had nothing. I used the house ball and shoes. I had no technique whatsoever. I played like normal but I got in. I'm sooooo happy and uber excited because I've never represented daerah before. Ever! Haha. Alhamdulillah. 


Now, i just got back from jasema. I went to OU before that to buy new track pants. Needed extra. Haha. Okay, thats all, I wanna go rest now. My arms are becoming sore. hehe. See ya! Skaadushh. :P

out, ★

In everyone's life, there are similar parts but different stories,

There is surely a part of your life where you find it too good to be true,

In my life i may add, that particular part, i call it you. 

I love you.

Scream until you say "Oh no!"

Paramdumdum! Hello, today was a really good day for me. Weird though but a good weird. I really love today because mainly, We didn't study the WHOLE day. Literally. Haha. Most of the teachers who came in class are relief teachers so they didn't teach. After assembly, suddenly Pn. Anne stopped me and asked me to join in the debate's training session. Haha. I was like "whaaaaaaaat?" Shizz. I didn't know my name was on the list. So okay, I'm joining debate. 


Then after school, i was supposed to go to german class but I felt lazy and Amin told me yesterday that he was going to bowling club. So i wanted to follow because I really love bowling. Hehe its fun! :D So I stayed at school. At first, Syaza was there then she went back, leaving me the only girl. There was Amin, Aidil, Aizat, Fahmi and Aziz at the canteen waiting for Encik Ishak. 
Then when Encik Ishak came, Aziz went back home so the five of us got into Encik Ishak's car and we were off to Cineleisure. At first, the plan was for me, Aidil and Fahmi to just sit and watch while Amin and Aizat played but then Cikgu asked us if we wanted to play. So we did. Haha. We played 3 games and during the 2nd game, Encik Ishak asked me if I wanted to go represent the school bowling team for girls. Again like my debate expression, i was like "whaaaaaaat?" HAHA. I was really surprised yet excited because I might be representing the school's bowling team, Hehe. :P


After bowling, all of us went and bought ice cream, courtesy of Zain. Thanks! hehe. Then we just hanged around while waiting for Cikgu to come back and pick us up. The boys made me laugh like crazy until tears came down my eyes. Haha. It was funny and fun. Then we went back to school and only there was only me and Amin left. The rest went back. So we hung out in the canteen and saying random and stupid things. But its fun. hehe ♥ :P Then soon, my dad came and I went back. I helped mum cook and bathed, eat, and now here I am doing some english project stuffs. So yeah. Thats it. haha. See ya! Skaadushh 

out, ★

Today is a special day ♥
I'll love you till the end

Yo all formspring haters! If you guys hate me sooooo much lah kan, come, lets meet! So you can share all your hatred with me. Come lah! 
You guys wanna hate me soo much as if i disturbed your life. You guys calling me a loser, pathetic and such but actually, you are the pathetic one. Giving stupid and unreasonable remarks about me and my life as if i've ever disturbed yours. Dont you have something better to do? Tak ada life ke until you wanna try and bring down mine? One word. LAME! 
No matter what you say, It will not make any difference. It will not change me. Because nobody can make a fool  out of something i'm not. So yeah, kutuk lah. Tak ada guna. 


And if it's about me fainting on sports day, OH MY GOD lah, how many times do I have to say that I did not fucking fake it! Here's all my medicine and medical certificates!

There! I would put a picture of the mark i had on my hand because of the drip but unfortunately, the mark is no longer there.
Sooo, if this doesn't make you shut the fuck up then i don't know what will. Aren't you guys tired of posting hate remarks? I dah muak tengok. Bukannya sakit hati or what. I menyampah. Seeing people having nothing better to do than to judge. It's sad. Real sad. 
Actually, I pity all of you. You guys can't find any other way to make yourself feel better so you guys used me as a point so you guys can kutuk and hence, feel satisfied. You guys are pathetic. Hating me isn't going to prove a point and ain't gonna make you go anywhere. So use the brain that god gave you and think of what hating me does to you guys and how does it not benefit you in any way. 

out, ★

When I was younger I saw

Gosh, it's been a while since i blogged. Been very busy with exams! I think i failed two subjects already so yeah i'm screwed. But whatever lah. What better way to improve then to learn from your mistakes right? :D
I actually have nothing to blog about. haha. Just that i've been spending my time watching gossip girl and yeah thats it. Holidays are kinda boring. don't know what to do. :\ 
Okay, thats it lah. Skaadushh. (:

out, ★

Oh noo, exam exam has come. Need to study like all the time. Shizz, lazyness! -__- 
No syaq! snap out of it! You've got to focus. Make parents, sisters and yourself proud :) 
I'm gonna try and do the best I can for this year and next year. Studies are my main priority right now. The others can wait. I'm tired of getting nagged at for not studying and I can't bear to look at my dad's face every time he gets my results slip. I won't disappoint him again. I'll do the best I can to not fail him. I've gotten so much but I've never given him what he wanted. Its time to repay him with good grades! :D
I know I'm smart, everyone is. I'm just SUPER lazy and EASILY distracted. Haha. I've got to resist temptation. 
Ohh, that will be hard but I'll try. (Y) 


Now, I feel good and pumped up to study but, it has to wait until I return from lunch. I'm going out with ray after this. hehe :) And somehow, I've become less pessimistic about my life and everything around it. I'm feeling more and more happier and I don't know why. Call me crazy but I'm happy (: Okay, thats all. 

out, ★

Lately i've been messing around with photoshop and I made certain* photos look horrendously hideous. Haha. Made my whole day. HAHA, I would post it if I could but I don't have the guts. Hehe, 
But other than making certain* photos look hideous, I made some look surprisingly awesome. If I have to say so myself. All the effects, I learn from YouTube. hehe big thanks (Y) :D 
Oh! And while I was on YouTube, I found this music video a lady gaga and beyonce fan made of their song 'Telephone'. HAHA. Seriously gay gay gay. Here's the link if you want to watch it


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4t-H43PcgFs


Lately I've been talking with Moon about my life and problems I'm facing and she's been helping me a lot and making me realize things I already do but never do anything about. I'm learning that I'm okay and I'll be fine and I'll definitely survive. This problem isn't gonna bring me down anymore. I'm strong and I'll leave it to god to do whatever that needs to be done. As long as I've done my part. I've also felt more closer to her than ever and I appreciate her more now. 
My friend, Dano has also been a great friend. Checking up on me from time to time. Seeing if i'm okay or not. Also helping me with my problems. I really appreciate that he cares and is there for me. Thanks a lot!
I feel better and know better now, but I still cry though. Every time, I think, "How could they?" The answer to that still remains unknown to me. All i know is that, that has 'heartless' written all over it. 
Well screw that. I've more important things to worry about. They can never make a fool out of something i'm not.

out, ★

Shout Out!

Scratch some parts of my last post

I don't wanna need a person if I know for a fact that, that person doesn't except me for who I am, trusts me, be there for me in my time of need. You're not called a friend without it. 

A friend shouldn't be based on what YOU want them to be. If you honestly wanted to be there friend, you wouldn't care. But since you do, then why bother right? I just don't understand why do you waste your own time making up and creating new yet similar ways to bring a person down when you only just don't like one side of a person. 

You're just saying all those things to make you feel good about yourself. By tearing a person down, you feel superior, powerful and great. You want to feel that feeling and you'd do whatever to get it. Even if effects another person. That's self insecurity. 

If you want a friend to honestly and sincerely be your friend for who you are then you should start by doing the same. Karma, what goes around comes around. You need to give respect to get it. 

I bet one thousand percent, if you're in a group/clique, most of you would bitch bad things about one or more than one person to another and tells that person to keep it a secret and then another person does the same and the cycle goes on and on. Don't you guys have better things to do? Get a life. Why revolve your life around stupid things? 

Yes, high school is full of drama's. Everyone goes through it whether you like it or not but we all go through it but you don't have to add drama to something that doesn't even have a drama to start with. You just want a little action so you can feel cool and awesome because you're disempowering other people. Nak 'up' lah katakan. -_____-

p/s ; this post is merely based on general things. Nothing to do with my life. (probably the first two sentence, yeah but the rest no.) This goes out to everyone in general.

out, ★

I just got back from the hospital a couple of hours ago. I had to get water dripped inside me because I was still dehydrated. Really did not enjoy it. :\ Thank goodness i don't have to be admitted but my dad said that if I'm not feeling better then i'll have no choice but to do so. I'm  scared, i've never been in a hospital before. Right now, honestly speaking, I really need my friends but none of them are there because none of them believe me. )':
My sisters aren't here for me either because they're all busy with there own agenda.
I've only got my parents for now. I guess thats good enough. To my friends, I'm really sorry for what i did to make you guys think so bad of me. But i really need you guys right now. I rarely ask for anything from you guys. Probably little things but not major things.
I just need my friends by side right now, is it too much to ask? I'm honestly not well. But then again, it's up to you if you wanna believe me or not. I just hope you do.