Understand

I know im an understanding type of person but i've never knew that all this while i have not been understanding him. Now that i know why he's been avoid me and so on, i will try to change wht he disapproves of me and hopefully our relationship can work out for the better.
You people may not know how i really am. When i love a person(guy) i wont get sidetracked. Not even for a bit. Occasionally from time to time, i would look at other guys and say "oooh! there handsome! grrh" haha. but it doesn't mean anything really.
Its just an expression us girls like to make. I dont know abt other girls but thats me.
I really hope he doesn't wanna end what we have. hopefully he wants to stay like this and even better, pop the question.
But he should knw that i dont want to pressure him. The decision is his to make and i will accept whatever he chooses to decide. I cant force him to do anything. I have no right to.
Just that if he chooses to end it, i hope we can still continue to be best friends like we were before.
I dont want, if our relationship ends, our friendship ends too. no no no.
It would be great if we were as we were.
So to you my love, my darling.
I love you and i will always will. Dont ever forget that.

SYAKIRAH <3