I AM JUST NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYBODY IN THIS WORLD!

no matter what i do. How nice i am to people. How hard i try on things. Nothing makes me good enough. Nobody is ever satisfied with what i am and who i am. I'm sorry i'm not what you want me to be. I'm sorry i'm not little miss perfect. But if you love me, you should know and learn to accept me for who i am. What? you want me to be what you want me to be? So meaning, you'll love me just because i am what you ask me to be? BULLSHIT LAH! I won't change for anyone but me. People can advise me to be a better person but its my choice isn't it? I'm not gonna change for a person. I'll only change for me. 

Why can't I be accepted? 

I know i am not perfect. 

But why can you accept other people except for me?

Why am i an exception in this case?

I am only human.

I feel like i'm trash. 

Useless trash.

I'm sorry i'm not good enough for anybody in this world. 

Sue me.

out, ★

A reason

Human 1 : 

Give me one good reason to not be happy right now. I know you cant! :p

Human 2 : 

Yes I can

Human 1 :

Phfft, prove it

Human 2 : 

Maybe I will

Human 1 : 

Then prove it!

Human 2 :

Oh shit I forgot

Human 1 : 

Excuses! 

*argue like losers*

Human 3 : 

Okay I'll give you the reasons! I'll give you two!

one, exams aren't over yet

two, both of you.

Now shut it, i'm tryna study.

Human 1 and 2 :

okay.

Sorry, I know its not funny and it doesn't make sense but I was bored. HAHA

I miss :

♥ My childhood that I don't really remember

♥ My grandma, Tok Mak

♥ My cousins at Johor

♥ Primary school

 ♥ Dancing

♥ Performing at charity events

♥ Performing in general

♥ Tap dancing

♥ Uncle Yai )':

♥ Hanging out with my sisters

♥ Flora damansara
♥ Songwriting

♥ You

Today I feel : 
- Touched
- Awwed
- Tired
- Hungry
- Dizzy
- Sneezy
- Sleepy
- Hungry
- Loved
- Cared


etc......

EXAMINATION

why must you exist?

So far,

BM = Fail

Accounts = Fail

Physics = Fail

Chemistry = Fail

Add Maths = Double Fail!

And the rest? Well, i'm guessing also Fail! 

I'm such a failure. I study my effing arse off but yet, I'm still a failure. Damnit! -_-

Whoaaa, How long has it been since i blogged? Shizzz, a long time maan. Okayy, whats happening so far. Hmm, Practically nothing new. Nah, i'm lying. Haha. Obviously there are new things but most of them I just have to keep it to myself. Ngehee :p Btw, don't ask! I won't say. Haha. 


Everything has been going quite well. I understand the current add maths topic. hehe. I feel smart but I really hate the first 3 chapters of it. I understand nothing. haha. I think i'm gonna do some exercise after this. I really need to improve myself for the better. 


Exams are in 2 weeks. Fcckkk. The worst part is, the paper will be in FULL FORMAT. Like you know, SPM format so i'll confirm fail! Especially sejarah. Oh gosh, and also Add Maths. aiyayai. I've to study. I think i'm gonna start going to the library. Anyone wants to tag along aswell, by all means, please do. Hehe. 


Friends are great. Last week on wednesday, a bunch of us hanged out at Fareena's house and all of us went to the park to play and all. hehe. I had a blast. Then when we all went back to Far's place, we all sang while Danial played the guitar. It was definitely an 'AWWWW' moment. heee :D I felt like we're all a family living in the same house. Heee :D


Boyfriend? well, what else can I say. So far so great. hehe. He's just the best. No one can make me feel the way I do other than him. He is so far the only one who makes me feel extra love. I'm not being perasan but I really feel like he really does love me. I know he isn't joking around or fooling around this time and I'm thankful. Yes, when we fight is the worst thing ever but that's how relationships are.We're bound to fight. But we gotta make it through together (: hee 


Kay i think thats the only update of my life so far. haha. Skaadusshh

out, ★