There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you,

_ ____ ___ (fill in the blanks)

It repeated, spread and everything is filled with confusion.

What I didn't want repeating again, repeated. Not only that, it got worse.

I'm starting to realize that i'm fine with what i had before. 

Just that I haven't got the heart to say it.

New year is in a few hours and I'm on a mission. 

A mission to succeed in life and to reach my goals and dreams.

If it* comes, it comes. If not, I won't be searching. I know I'm not ready.

Time to resist temptation, infatuation for the best of me and others.

Time to change and embrace the opportunities that'll pass by.

Time to say goodbye. So goodbye, au revoir, arrivederci.

out, ★

Penilaian Menengah Rendah

I've gotten my results already. I shall not say what I got but I will say this. I'm proud of it (:
Alhamdulillah syukur. 

out, ★

One Shall Prove Themself Worthy On This Fine Day

OMG! ITS ALREADY THE PMR RESULTS DAY! I'M TERRIFIED! TERRIFIED I TELL YOU! I'm gonna go soon but i've got to wait for mum. So while waiting, lemme tell you something. 


I had a really weird dream last night and I really liked it. I shall not say or tell what and who i dreamt about but one thing is for sure that I know I shouldn't. I know the dream wont come true. Heck, the chances of it becoming reality is highly unlikely. Even close to it is impossible. I know this because of certain reasons. But I am 100% sure of what i just said. But deep inside me I want it to come true. I want it to happen. I've got issues I haven't settled with and I just don't know how to. Naah, I don't mean that. I do know how to it's just that part of me doesn't want to do what i'm supposed to do. It's stubborn. Ooohh, very stubborn. But it is how I feel and i've tried what I can for months but its still there. Its not going away! Goshh. Part of me wants it to go and part of me wants it to stay. I've got to think deeply hard about what I should do. I think I'll sleep on it for several nights. Hopefully i'll be given a sign on one of those nights. I hope.

out, ★

False Alarm

Taik punya Dr. Yap -_- When I went to the dentist just now, he was freaking rough! He told me that i wont be doing braces today. He has to analyse more shizzz i don't know. Sooooo i don't know when I will be doing it so i'll wait for his call. But most probably soon lah. 


Oh my gucci! Tomorrow is the results! I'm hellafraid! ): So scared wann. Okay, that's all i've got to say so tataa, Skaadushh.

out, ★

Ralph Lauren Hurt Me

Oh my, my feet hurts. But it doesn't hurt like before. Dah okay lah. I opened 3 bills yesterday. Quite proud but also disappointed because I wanted to open atleast 5 yesterday but i'm proud because it was a tuesday so not many people would buy. Anyways. I took the day off today because today is the day! I'm gonna get braces! Oh nooo! I'm afraid yet excited! haha. Wish me luck. o.o hee. And then tomorrow, 

PMR

Grr! I hate youu. But somehow, i feel excited but obviously i'm afraid and nervous like mad. Gosh, I've got butterflies in my tummy. I'm afraid! I really hope that i do well. It would be nice to see my parents be proud of me like they were in 2006. Yes 3 years ago. That's a long time. I really hope my results will make them proud. But i know my parents wont expect me to get 8 A's. They expect me to get like, 4 A's only. hmm :/ I hope I proved them wrong. ):

out, ★

"Sir, would you like to try (name of product) ? "

This is my everyday line. I've already started working so i wont get to update much 
because i'll probably be friggin tired by the time I reach home. -_- So yeah. 
And the only time and way you can contact me is to call or text me at either 
12, 1 or 2 and 4,5 or 6. Those are my break hours. One of them of course. 
You think being a perfume promoter is not tiring? 
Standing all day just promote here and there? Oh noo. 
Its the standing part thats kills you. When you've got a customer, it's all good. (Y) 
In my opinion though.

1. I get to talk

2. I get to berangan

3. If I get to sell, i'll feel good

4. Time will pass by fast

5. Boss will be impressed B)

So yeah. Not much to update though. I've sold 4 items already. *wootwoot* haha. 
I feel proud and it's like an achievement y'know? You feel like you've got the power! 
oh yeah! haha. All of us there are nice to each other so going to work is fun. 
You've got your friends there to chat with and all. (:

Other than that, tomorrow, i've got to set up the promotion thingy's all by myself 
because my friend, esan, has the day off tomorrow and my other friend alwi, 
always comes to work late. -_- So i'll be all by myself. OH MY ARMANI! haha. 
Well, I guess i'll be fine. Guess lah. haha.

Okay so far, that's all. Skaadushh

out, ★

Haritz Huzariq

Today is Abang Manis/Berasap's Birthday! So i'd like to say,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MA MAN! 

Love Ya! ♥ 

I know I've only known Yik like only a few months but I can say that he is a really nice and honest person. I'm proud to call him ma man. HAHA. Anyways, I've always got your back ma brotha! We've been through some pretty crazy times together. Hooo, you have not seen crazy until Syaq and Yik becomes one! Haha, You will say you don't know us. (: Oh! And I thank you for helping me get a job. If it wasn't for you, mmg tak lah. Haha.

So, have a great birthday Haritz Huzariq! Skaadushh. 

out, ★

Go Metrojaya!

Heee, I'm starting work tomorrow! Oh yeah! :D but but but I'm so afraid. I've got chills. Haha. Maybe I've got chills because I'm sick but still. haha. 

Anywho, I hope I i'll be feeling ay-okay by tomorrow. Please! I so don't wanna miss first day of work. I'm a new woman! HAHA, Despite me sneezing non-stop, I feel good today. But I do feel guilty canceling with danial kordy twice. Reaaally guilty. I really wanted to watch Avatar. Curse this virus! Well, it's alright. Next time then. Hmm, Okay, I'm gonna go and study the the fragrances i'll be promoting. Heee :) Oh, i would like to say something.

"Yo no sé por qué pero me siento como si estuviera solo. Yo no siento que tengo un novio. Las cosas podrían haber ido demasiado rápido. Yo hubiera pensado que a través de este. Je suis désolé."

out, ★

I Hate You

Oh No! The Results for PMR is on the 24th :/

I hate this

I Hate You

I Hate Me

Tawakal Je Lah.

★

Danial Danial Danial Akmal! :O

Dano called me just now and that was the first time I heard his voice. His voice is nice and I like the way he speaks. Thumbs up to that (Y). Dano is a weird weird fellow who refuses to accept that he is weird. He prefers unique. Haha, he's a fun person overall. I could actually click with him y'know? vally nice. HAHA xD Anywho, I'm gonna go offline now. Getting pretty tired and I need to study them perfume products. Goshhh. Feels like i'm taking an exam! Feels like PMR all  over again! Oh my gucci. Haha. Aiite, Ima go now. hehe. Tatass (:

out, ★

Macarroni Soup :D

I Cooked Dinner Last Night And I Felt Good (y)

My mum wasn't at home and my sister was too tired so I had to cook. I also actually wanted to cook anyways. haha. Yesterday was probably the first time I cooked without my mum being there to supervise me. hehe :p 

I'm actually proud of myself because it turned out so yummy. If I had to say so myself. hee. But mostly I main bantai letak je ingredients. Haha. Thats all. Tataa

★

Meet Drew

THUMBS UP. (Y)

★

X-Ray Vision

Anastasia

Anastasia is one of my favourite Cartoon Movies. It's inspiring (:

I just got back from Tung Shin Hospital to get my teeth X-Rayed for my braces next week. I'm going to start work already. I start this Saturday at Metrojaya, Curve. Wish me luck! Hopefully I get to sell any perfume. haha. Come and buy perfume from me please! I'm promoting Ralph Lauren, Giorgio Armani and Emporio Armani. hee. Come come! :D

Okay, I'm gonna go and study the products now. hehe. See ya! 

out, ★ 

Dental Yap and Associates

I went to the dentist today since my dentist told me I had to take out my baby tooth pronto. My appointment was at like 2.30 and when I reached there I was so afraid because it was already my turn! Then the doctor put some thing on my gums so that I wouldn't feel the numb injection.  After that the doctor injected my gums and i could feel the needle going in. It didn't hurt like I remember it. It was alright. But I got two injections on my upper baby tooth and three injections on my bottom baby tooth! Taik gila! )': But I tell you, it wasn't the worst part. No no. 


Then the doctor started pulling my upper tooth out. Damnnn sakit okay. He gripped my tooth with the thingy and pulled it out. But wait, it's not over yet. The tooth's root broke so he had to dig my gums and push my gums to take out the remainings. It really hurt. I felt like crying but I didn't. When he wanted to pull my bottom baby tooth out, it didn't feel a thing. But the upper one was torture. It's root was like stuck to my gigi taring's root so you can get the picture right? Sakit gila. After it was over I cried and when I reached home, I straight away slept so I wouldn't feel the pain. Didn't work cause I couldn't sleep because it was painful. Ishh. I'm glad its over. 

And I'm gonna have braces next week. Gosh. I'm afraid. Wish me luck :/

out, ★ 

Say It Isn't So

I am pretty not happy.

These past week, I've been feeling really down in the dumps. Yeah, I've had wonderful times when I'm out with my friends and all but when the day ends, I'll be at home doing nothing as each of my family have their own agenda and I'll be there, sitting in my room just waiting for that someone to give me a text. I waited like a statue but ended up disappointed in the end. It's been going on for quite sometime already. I'll say I am sad and angry. Very angry. Unfortunately, noobs attract my attention. I'd get all excited and do whatever I can and should but ended up, I'm still hurt. When I need you, you're not there. Thank goodness i've got my family, my girl friends, Fareena, Fatim, Shahira, Syaza, Fatin and Nadiah and my guy friends to cheer me up. Like just now, I thank Haritz Huzariq (yik) for he can always put a smile on my face. Always there to make me go hyper and wacky and just make me laugh when I need to. Thanks yik! You'll always be my Abang manis/berasap/gungstar etc.... (: 

But you can easily put a smile on my face but ..

I am still pretty not happy )':

out, ♥

Johnny's

Today was fun, went to the dentist for scaling and went and hanged with Danial K. after that. We watched 'love happens' It was alright. It's a movie where you should watch with your boyfriend or girlfriend. So yeah. Anywho, then we went to KFC and obviously makaaan. hee :D Yummy. When we were both eating, One of the lady workers came to me and gave me a tissue that has a number on it written with chili sauce. haha. She said some guy in a red t-shirt asked her to give it to me. Here it is. hehe. 

I blurred the number cause I think it wouldn't be nice to let the world know the number. But it was kind of funny and unexpected. After that we walked around and he wanted to buy a new guitar strings for his acoustic guitar so we went to guitar collection and then I felt like playing foosball. And we did and I won by one point. ngehee :p *banggaface* HAHA. Mostly we just walked around aimlessly and just talked. Then i remembered I had to go to MPH to check out some organizers for my sisters so we went and spent alotta time there. We looked at stationaries, guitar books, language books (VERY FUNNY), and joke books. Lame lame lame joke books. Like noob gila. haha. Then my sister called and said that she and bgbill was at Johnny's so he sent me there and he went home. I'd say that today was fun, I actually enjoyed myself (:
Thanks Danial for paying for my movie tickets. Hee :D Okay thats all, till then 

out, ♥

Ice ice baby

Hello yellow dirty fellow. hee :D
I haven't been blogging as much as i used to and I've got a new story! 

ICE SKATING

I went to Sunway Pyramid with Shahira, Fatin and Nadiah last Thursday. It was supposed to be like a girls day out with all the girls but some of them couldn't make it so only four of us went. We watched a movie only halfway because we didn't have the mood to finish the movie. So we went out and went ice skating for 4 hours. o_o It was fun. I definitely enjoyed myself especially the falling part. hee. Falling is kinda fun. :D I was happy that day because I got to hang with my girls whom I missed but I was also sad that some couldn't make it. ): But it's alright, We'll meet each other soon. Oh yeah! hehe

out, ♥

Shot to the heart and you're to blame

Sometimes I wish I was holding a real gun in the same position.

$$$

I WANT MONEY MONEY MONEY!

out, ♥

MonsterQuest

Try watching this, 'MonsterQuest' on channel 555 on your astro. I watched it with Imran yesterday and surprisingly, quite interesting. HAHA. Wait, maybe I say its nice because there was nothing better to watch but interesting though. Haha Okay thats it. hee (:

out, ♥

Welcome to Sabah bah

Omg, finally the 'new post' thingy takda problem. hee :D


Headline for today is :- 

I JUST(not really just) RETURNED FROM SABAH! 

I'm just so happy because I had a great time in Sabah. The ocean there was simpl beautiful. It took my breath away. I went to Mount Kinabalu. I didn't climb to the tallest peak though but still, i was at the highest point where the cars can go. hehe. Oh and you have no idea how cold it was up there! I was freeeeeeezing. 

Anyways, I went to the philipines market and bought many many and many wooden bracelets, Vally nice wann :D

Before that, I went to this jewelery store, called 'Jamilah Jewelery' and they sell like REAL pearls and REAL crystals and my family and I are so lucky because when we went there, everthing was 50% off! so if it's RM30 for crystalized bracelet, it automatically reduces to RM15. And we got free gifts too! I felt lucky the whole trip. hehe. It didn't rain even though it was raining season. It rain on the day we wanted to go back home. 

I had a blast! hehe. So I would like to thank, My mum for booking the flight tickets, My dad for providing the money for souvenir shopping, hehe, My sisters for well being there with me and layaning my merepek-ness and annoyingness. Oh! and not to forget, ZAIDI! Our van driver/tour guide for the whole trip. hehe :D 

Definitely a trip to remember (:

out,♥

Nine in the afternoon

I hope what happened last night, will never repeat or go overboard

♥

all you need is your friends

I don't know why but I feel like saying I love you to:-

Fareena Aiman 
- She's always puts a smile on her face even though she is not feeling happy

Fatimah Hanif 
- She is the girl who has a positive attitude and once she puts her mind into something, she'll try everything to get it but if it doesn't work out, she takes it as a lesson learned 

Nur Syaza Afiqah
- No matter how hectic and complicated her life is, if a friend of hers is in need, she will always be there for them

Shahira Che Ghani
- Need i say more? She always does the weirdest but yet most adorable thing anyone could think of. She just makes people smile

Fatin Nabilah
- She just have her own idea of things and whatever she does, we all still love her. She never misses out on anyone

Nadiah Najib 

- All i can say is that the way she speaks is just so cute and she's always supportive in whatever we choose but yet she speaks her mind when necessary

♥

These are the girls whom I love and currently miss hanging out with, laughing together and be with everyday at school. I miss school because I miss the times we'd make stupid jokes in the canteen and everything else. 

From the bottom of my heart, i say, I LOVE YOU GIRLS! 

out, ♥

You didn't hear it from me

You know it kinda hurts to hear your own sisters not wanting to spend time with you. Like you feel so left out. Yeah we're 7,9 and 11 years apart but so what right? I am still your sister. Yes, i know you've got boyfriends and you wanna spend each moment with them, well then get married! But until then, you guys haven't tied the knot yet so please balance your time. I wanna spend my time with my sisters too you know.

Its like i'm never included in your plans. Whenever I ask you if i could tag along, you say 'no'. Then when i'm out with my friends you guys wanna invite me here and there and when i say i can't make it then you guys say that i spend too much time with my friends and then you'd say "Oh, we do invite you and wanna take you out but you're always with your friends" 

Hello! I'm with my friends because you guys always push me away and don't want me around. You can't expect me to always be the one to ask you guys to hang out with me. When will you guys be the one to invite me? It really hurts to know that my own flesh and blood, my sisters, don't like having me around. Ohh you guys like having your boyfriends siblings around but not your own. It hurts. It really does. )':

out, ♥

I'm bored. Gimme something to work with! Goshh. I want new clothes clothes clothes!

! My house in TTDI is like almost done! And I really can't wait to move back there where I belong! I just don't wanna stay in this freaking ghetto haven anymore. It's driving me crazy.

The house shall be ready in approximately 1 week and i'll be moving back there probably in 2 - 3 weeks time. Gosh! I'm excited. Okay that's all! Tataa

out, ♥

Just one fruit from one tree, just one rumble-bumble to one bee

"Could it be magic, It must be magic.

Tell me true, Are you my only one" ♥ 

 I love you Imran Shafiq and I know you know that too. 

Te amo (spanish),

 أنا أحبك (arabic),

 Я тебя люблю (russian),

 Je t'aime (french),

 Ich liebe dich (german),

Mahal kita (filipino).

The many languages that means ' i love you ' and all of it is for you. 

out, ♥

After a while

After a while to think it wouldn't hurt. But I guess I was wrong. It still hurts. It still stings. But I have learnt to live with it. Once you start, there's no turning back. And I won't. I won't. Because I don't want to. 

out, ♥

Once you start, there's no turning back

I AM SO AFRAID )':

Are you telling the truth? 

Do you really love me?

Is what you said sincere?

Are you sure I'm not a rebound?

Are you just fooling around?

Are you taking advantage of me?

*questions that are filling my brain )':

out, ♥

Topshop, Taxi Stand

All I shall say Is take me back to the 'Topshop, Taxi Stand' moment (:

Wanting my little penguin /  budak kecik <3

out, ♥

Meet Me halfway

When I woke up this morning,

I realized I was smiling,

It's been going on for three days now,

Believe me, I'm not lying.

When I first saw you,

It's like love at first sight, you see,

I know people say that's not true,

But I know deep down it might be.

Every time I get a text from you,

I feel so nervous and shy,

I only feel this way to certain people,

Especially a certain guy.

Though, I admit I'm afraid,

That I might get hurt in the end,

But I'll put that aside right now,

And let my heart unbend.

out, ♥

I believe there is such thing as love at first sight

Dear blog,
I know i've only met him like twice but today was a different feeling. I think i am slowly falling for this guy.
I'm just afraid to because I don't want to get myself hurt.
I'll hope for the best :D

I think I'm falling for you

out, ♥ 

hate is a strong word but i really really really don't like you

SYAKIRAHBUDAK BANGANG

hey
heyy  
i'm bored :/
and then wht can i do?
haha
msn wit me
haha!
ada webcam?
roiighht
ada but nt working
hahaha
web cacat?
have u eaten yet?
npe i kena install the cd but the cd is at my old hse
and yeah i've eaten
you?
oh
when u pindah blik sana?
nop
malas.
december :/
haha xD
not funny
lama lagi
eh suka hati i la nk gelak
=.=
ada masalah?
yes ada
apa?
nvm
apahal?
nvmm
loser!
okayy
big loser
asl u after break lain gile
why cant u be the old u
=.=
you think its that easy?
and you think i boleh ke haa?
apa yg susahnya?
u tell me
u tink to much
like wat u said
never regret
so ha let it go la
yes u can
hve u try yet?
apa kena mengena ngn regret?
main ckp je you enn/
sabar lahh
i can be myself balik but not immediately lah bangang
well tink it yourself
sebab u bengong
dulu u ckp after break can b friends la normal and blablabla
tgk2
YEAHHHHH BUT IT TAKES TIME LAH FUCKER
=.=
ISHHH
cerita keling
BOLEH TAK YOU FOR ONCE FAHAM BAHASA?
!
asal u nak mencarut ni?
ASAL TAKE TIME
SEBAB I BENGANG LAH KOT
XDE SEBAB PUN NAK TAKE TIME!
U JE MENGALABH LEBIH
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE SEBAB YOU TAK FAHAM!
YOU TAK FAHAM
KAU CKP JE KAU FAHAM
PADAHAL TAK
BENGAP
memang aku faham
kau yang selalu nak menang
keep on nak menang
kata i x fhm
KAU TK FAHAM LAH 

padahal u sendiri YANG X FAHAM DIRI U SENDIRI!
ha nak menang
AMBIK1
DONT YOU SAY I DNT UNDERSTAND MYSELF BITCH
can u start learning tht not all stuf u can win
u ah bitch
EH PLEASE LAH 
i'm nt a girl
bengong!
YES
U DONT UNDERSTAND URSELF!
BODOH
I WOULDNT FIGHT BACK IF IM WRONG
BABII

BLAHH LAH
I DNT WANNA BE YR FRIEND
GO FUCK YRSELF
but memang u salah
tgk
sikit2 nak melenting
mengalahkan laki
I DNT GIVE A FUCK LAH

well i try to be ur friend
but u yang keep on blah
SEBAB YOU TAK FAHAM LAH BENGONG BENGAP BABI!
FAHAM APA!?
KAU CAKAP SIKIT BABI!
KAU CAKAP SEKARANG!
APAHAL?
AKU CAKAP APA PUN KAU TKKAN FAHAM
KAU ADA JE NK CKP BALIK

ADA JE
KAU CAKAP LA SEKARANG
MCM KAU BAGUS SANGAT
CAKAP AH!
CAKAP LA!
AKU BUANG MASA LAH WEY
KAU NAK MENANG KAN
CAKAP LA1
OKAY
FINE
AKU BAGI KAU MENANG
HAH,
MCM TU AKU MALAS LAH
PLEASE LAH
AKU TAHU AKU TK SALAH
CAKAP LA BABI!
KAU JE YG SELALU TK FAHAM
AKU SURUH CAKAP KAU X NAK CAKAP
bangang ke bodoh
?
MASA AKU CKP DULU TKNK DGR!!!!!!!!11
BILA AKU MALAS NK CKP BARU KAU NK DGR
KAU LAH BANGANG DAN BODOH
BILE KAU CAKAP
aku try tnya
kauc ckp
ouh nothing u x fhm
the prob wit u is
KAU YANG JENIS X BOLEH TERIMA FAKTA MEMANG KAU SALAH
WHATEVER LAH
AKU DAH TAK KISAH
KAU SAPE JE SKRG 
NOT EVEN A FRIEND
SO BANTAI AA
TGK NAK MENANG
FYI
kawan kau sendiri x suka kau
so at least i try to be ur friends
kalau sikap kau mcm ni
SAPE TAK SUKA AKU HAA?
nampaknye the whole du or selangor akan benci kau
DAH BLAH AH
START FROM TODAY
AKU MCM NI NGN KAU JE
AKU X KENAL KAU
KAU BLAH
BYE
DAH BLAH
aku try ckp baik
kau cakap mcm puki
BYE
aku nk baik pstu kau gi annoy aku paha
*pahal
bye
BILE AKU ANNOY KAU BABI!
SELALU
weh dah dah la tu buat perangai kau mcm babi
KAU ANGGAP AKU MCM ORG BAIS
xde orang suka pun
*BIASA
AKU TEGUR LKAU PUN XDE
HABIS
KAU LUAR BIASA KE!?
KAU TK FIKIR KE HAA?
AKU EX KAU
MESTI LAH KAU KENA CHILL DULU
BUT KAU TAK FAHAM
SEDIH KAU TAHU TAK
TAPI AKU DAH TK KISAH DAH
KAU FAHAM X
AKU DAH X LOVE KAU
SEBAB TU AKU SENANG NAK LUPAKAN KAU
ANDDDD
I NEVER SERIOUS IN LOVING GIRLS
INCLUDE U
DO U GET THAT?
X PERNAH!
SO KAU X YAH NAK MENGGELABAH
OHH REALLY
NOW?
SO YOU HAVE BEEN FREAKING LYING THIS WHOLE TIME TO ME
FINE
YOU KEEP THIS UP AND YOU WILL NEVER BE LOVED
NOT YOU
AKU BARI 15 KOT!

- i did not leave anything out and i did not add any additional words.

- i currently hate this person so much and yes i know, hate is a strong word but i don't care.

- i've always told myself. never regret. if its good, its wonderful. if not, its experience. but i regretted ever getting to know him.

- i was fooled again. 

out, ♥