Maybe I need some rehab
Or maybe just need some sleep
I got a sick obsession
I'm seein it in my dreams
I'm lookin down every alley
I'm makin those desperate calls
I'm stayin up all night hopin hitin my head against the wall

What you got boy, is hard to find
I think about it all the time
Im all strung out my heart is fried
I just cant get you off my mind!

Because your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love
Your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love

Wont listen to any advice
Mommas tellin me I should think twice
But look into my own devices, im addicted its a crisis
My friends think ive gone crazy
My judgments gettin kinda hazy
My steeze is gonna be affected if I keep it up like a love sick crack head

What you got boy, is hard to find
I think about it all the time
Im all strung out my heart is fried
I just cant get you off my mind!

Because your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love
Your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love

I dont care what people say
The rush is worth the price I pay
I get so high when your with me
But crash and crave you when you leave

Hey, so I got a question
Do you wanna have a slumber party in my basement?
Do I make your heart beat like an 808 drum
Is my love your drug? your drug?
Huh, your drug?
Huh, your drug?
Is my love your drug?

Because your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love
Your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love

Because your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love
Your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love

Hey, heyy, sooo
You love, your love your love, is my drug
(She says) I like your beard

Your Love Is My Drug - Ke$ha

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16th of the 6th

Look outside

It's already light and the stars ran away with the night

Things we're said, words that we'll try forget,

it's so hard to admit I know we've made mistakes

I see through all the tears but that's what got us here

If love is an ocean wide

We'll swim in the tears we cry

They'll see us through to the other side

We're gonna make it

When love is a raging sea

You can hold on to me

We'll find a way tonight

Love is an ocean wide

I'll stay right here

It's where I'll always belong

Tied with your arms

Days like this, I wish the sun wouldn't set

I don't want to forget

What made us feel this way

You see through all my fears

And that's what got us here

If love is an ocean wide

We'll swim in the tears we cry

They'll see us through to the other side

We're gonna make it

When love is a raging sea

You can hold on to me

We'll find a way tonight

Love is an ocean wide

Love is an ocean wide enough to forget 

Even when we think we can't 

*Ocean Wide - The Afters

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A little bit uneasy?

It takes a real person who understands me to see what I truly feel. They could see through my eyes and read the thoughts i'm thinking. Though some might not be accurate, but they'll get the rough idea of it.



I slept over at Myn's house yesterday and I slept at 6 and woke up at 10. I am so tired but I had fun though. Hanging out with the girls. Yeah, I do miss loverboy like crazy but I can't do anything. So i'll just have to wait till Wednesday. Gosh! I'm so excited. hehe :D


Actually, I don't know what to blog. I do have a topic but I know people might catch on what I'm trying to say and some might even misunderstand and terasa. I'm bothered you know? But whatever. Let it be. Haihhh.

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Breakeven (Falling to pieces)

WHEN LIFE GIVES YOU LEMON

MAKE LEMONADE.

you think its that easy? no it isn't

What am i gonna do, when the best part of me was always you and

What am i supposed to say when i'm all choked up that you're okay yeah

I'm falling to pieces

I'm falling to pieces

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain

You took the suitcase and i took the blame 

but i'm trying to make sense of what little remains

Oh but you left me with no love,

No love to my name

I'm still alive but i'm barely breathing,

Just praying to a god that I don't believe it,

Cause i got time while he got freedom

Cause when a heart breaks no it dont break even

I AM JUST NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYBODY IN THIS WORLD!

no matter what i do. How nice i am to people. How hard i try on things. Nothing makes me good enough. Nobody is ever satisfied with what i am and who i am. I'm sorry i'm not what you want me to be. I'm sorry i'm not little miss perfect. But if you love me, you should know and learn to accept me for who i am. What? you want me to be what you want me to be? So meaning, you'll love me just because i am what you ask me to be? BULLSHIT LAH! I won't change for anyone but me. People can advise me to be a better person but its my choice isn't it? I'm not gonna change for a person. I'll only change for me. 

Why can't I be accepted? 

I know i am not perfect. 

But why can you accept other people except for me?

Why am i an exception in this case?

I am only human.

I feel like i'm trash. 

Useless trash.

I'm sorry i'm not good enough for anybody in this world. 

Sue me.

out, ★

A reason

Human 1 : 

Give me one good reason to not be happy right now. I know you cant! :p

Human 2 : 

Yes I can

Human 1 :

Phfft, prove it

Human 2 : 

Maybe I will

Human 1 : 

Then prove it!

Human 2 :

Oh shit I forgot

Human 1 : 

Excuses! 

*argue like losers*

Human 3 : 

Okay I'll give you the reasons! I'll give you two!

one, exams aren't over yet

two, both of you.

Now shut it, i'm tryna study.

Human 1 and 2 :

okay.

Sorry, I know its not funny and it doesn't make sense but I was bored. HAHA

I miss :

♥ My childhood that I don't really remember

♥ My grandma, Tok Mak

♥ My cousins at Johor

♥ Primary school

 ♥ Dancing

♥ Performing at charity events

♥ Performing in general

♥ Tap dancing

♥ Uncle Yai )':

♥ Hanging out with my sisters

♥ Flora damansara
♥ Songwriting

♥ You

Today I feel : 
- Touched
- Awwed
- Tired
- Hungry
- Dizzy
- Sneezy
- Sleepy
- Hungry
- Loved
- Cared


etc......

EXAMINATION

why must you exist?

So far,

BM = Fail

Accounts = Fail

Physics = Fail

Chemistry = Fail

Add Maths = Double Fail!

And the rest? Well, i'm guessing also Fail! 

I'm such a failure. I study my effing arse off but yet, I'm still a failure. Damnit! -_-

Whoaaa, How long has it been since i blogged? Shizzz, a long time maan. Okayy, whats happening so far. Hmm, Practically nothing new. Nah, i'm lying. Haha. Obviously there are new things but most of them I just have to keep it to myself. Ngehee :p Btw, don't ask! I won't say. Haha. 


Everything has been going quite well. I understand the current add maths topic. hehe. I feel smart but I really hate the first 3 chapters of it. I understand nothing. haha. I think i'm gonna do some exercise after this. I really need to improve myself for the better. 


Exams are in 2 weeks. Fcckkk. The worst part is, the paper will be in FULL FORMAT. Like you know, SPM format so i'll confirm fail! Especially sejarah. Oh gosh, and also Add Maths. aiyayai. I've to study. I think i'm gonna start going to the library. Anyone wants to tag along aswell, by all means, please do. Hehe. 


Friends are great. Last week on wednesday, a bunch of us hanged out at Fareena's house and all of us went to the park to play and all. hehe. I had a blast. Then when we all went back to Far's place, we all sang while Danial played the guitar. It was definitely an 'AWWWW' moment. heee :D I felt like we're all a family living in the same house. Heee :D


Boyfriend? well, what else can I say. So far so great. hehe. He's just the best. No one can make me feel the way I do other than him. He is so far the only one who makes me feel extra love. I'm not being perasan but I really feel like he really does love me. I know he isn't joking around or fooling around this time and I'm thankful. Yes, when we fight is the worst thing ever but that's how relationships are.We're bound to fight. But we gotta make it through together (: hee 


Kay i think thats the only update of my life so far. haha. Skaadusshh

out, ★